Blame the heat

I've been so bad! Last Wednesday when I worked out it was the first time in a week and nearly killed me. So I was going to be better and go a lot this week. Two days later, on Friday I went to yoga class...

...and haven't been back since. hehe. So much for being good. My trainer had to cancel last night be cause of a stomach bug. I will go to yoga tomorrow night though. I probably will miss the Sunday class though at 2 pm. There's just so much to do on the weekends. And it's so hot I don't feel like doing a whole lot. But at least I'm not just sitting on my ass. Not a lot anyway. LoL

I will do better! If I blog it, I will do it. Right? Eh, we'll see.

Seriously

I was thinking today, wouldn't it be cool if I had minions to do my bidding? That would be awesome.

Space: The Final Frontier

I finally saw Star Trek last weekend. First I have to say, I am totally not a Trekkie. I remember seeing the original in reruns AFTER seeing Star Wars. Of course that made it seem kind of silly, but I remember some of the characters. The characters are what stuck with me. I have not even seen all of the Star Trek movies with the original cast. I was a bit of a New Generation junkie though.

The new movie was most excellent! The new people playing old characters were awesome! The actors should get awards for capturing the original character and portraying them very convincingly. Of course Kirk was the least recognizable, but come on, Shatner is too classic to copy too well. ;) I was most worried about new Spock. See, I always loved old Spock. I can even do the vulcan salute without using my other hand to position my fingers. New Spock? I luvs him too. :)

So without giving away the movie, I had many wonderful geeky-I-know-what-that-refers-to-moments. But even someone who has no idea what Star Trek is would enjoy this. It is just a great Sci-Fi action packed movie. And it has a half naked green chick. Come on, who doesn't think a half naked green chick is interesting?

Live long and prosper.

If only I'd read this years ago...

Ten signs that you are being stalked.

Perhaps the most important was the last:

10. Cumulative unwanted contact of any kind.

Perhaps no particular incident stands out in your mind as being dangerous, however, when you look at the entire picture, what you see alarms you. Do you experience repeated unwanted contact from the same person? If it is someone you know, tell him he is making you uncomfortable. If the situation continues, report him to the police. If it is someone you do not know, go directly to the police.

Stalking is often subtle, yet pervasive. In fact, the stalker is counting on you feeling as if his actions are ordinary demonstrations of affection. If you find yourself experiencing any of these situations on a consistent basis, you may be the victim of stalking, and your quick reporting to the police is the most effective tool in putting an end to the stalker’s terror.


Everyone that comes here should read this. Even if the situation does not become violent it still takes a lot out of you to deal with this. And then of course when the victim becomes moody and paranoid, it makes the stalker look innocent. Pass the link to everyone you know.

Interesting...

A few interesting tidbits from here:

Individuals characterised as stalkers may have a mistaken belief that the other person loves them (erotomania), or have a desire to help the other person. Stalking consists of a series of actions which in themselves can be legal, such as calling on the phone, sending gifts, or sending emails.


Incompetent suitors, despite poor social or courting skills, have a fixation, or in some cases a sense of entitlement to an intimate relationship with those who have attracted their amorous interest. Their victims are most often already in a dating relationship with someone else.


Stalking can be a terrifying experience for victims, placing them at risk of psychological trauma, and possible physical harm. As Rokkers writes, "Stalking is a form of mental assault, in which the perpetrator repeatedly, unwontedly, and disruptively breaks into the life-world of the victim, with whom they have no relationship (or no longer have). Moreover, the separated acts that make up the intrusion cannot by themselves cause the mental abuse, but do taken together (cumulative effect)."

Set the record straight

Just in case there is any doubt why I started a private blog, I would like to clarify. I did not start it to bash someone or talk rudely about anyone. I post mostly happy thoughts there. I started it simply to be able to share things with my bloggy buddies that I did not wish to be common knowledge with the general public. Personal things. Back when nobody knew who this blog belonged to I did not have that problem. That's why my full name is not on this blog. There used to be a link to here from my Twitter, but I don't think I use my full name there either. I posted what I wanted with full anonymity other than the few folks I have shared my name with elsewhere.

That is all.

Sun Sign Reflections

I'm kinda tired, and have had just a wee bit of vodka to relax and sleep well, so this might come out weird. But I've had these thoughts bouncing around my brain for a while, and I'd like to get them out. Not a whole lot of room left in there. ;)

I really believe there is something to the whole horoscope thing, and sun signs, moon signs, etc. And while I am definitely no expert, I can see correlations with different people and signs. So that prompted me to wonder why one person can be absolutely normal, and another with the same sign be completely mental. But there are connections. Take my sign for instance. My ex shares the same sign. He is a control freak and tended to be obsessive and possessive. I can see similar traits in myself. However, the obsessiveness is toned down to simple loyalty. And I can take the reins and lead if I need to, but I know when ( and prefer) to follow someone else. I like control over my own self, but not over those around me.

As for the possessiveness and jealousy, that can be a negative Taurus trait. Those of us who have been on the wrong side of it can push it aside. And of course everyone knows a Taurus can be stubborn. But I've (mostly) learned when to let go and when to dig my heels in and fight.

We are also stable, dependable, and very loving. My Ex showed a little of those qualities early in our relationship, but they faded too quickly. Perhaps it is simply a matter of learning to control your negative traits and emphasize your positive traits. I believe I have done a very good job of that. I have created a very stable environment for my children these past couple of years. More stable that it ever was when I was with their father. And anyone who knows me knows I am dependable (albeit sometimes a little late). I can take control when I need to, or pass it along to someone more qualified. I am very loyal, and know how to keep the occasional petty jealousy to myself. And I am affectionate. With the right person. :)

I am so glad to get that out finally. Sometimes it has to come out of the head to make sense, no?

That reminds me, since seeing Transporter 3 I occasionally like to spout things out in a Ukranian accent. It sounds Russian too. At least I think so. Of course I don't really do this in front of people who would think I'm nuts. I save it for those who know I'm nuts. Tis fun. :)

Spectacular, Spectacular

I am at this very moment watching Transporter 3. Jason Statham kicks ass most awesomely. But some parts are a little slow, hence the blog post. I may repeat some things from the other blog.

I have my first kid-free night coming up, June 13th. I'm ecstatic! Hold on...ass kicking in progress...

Ok, ass kicking over for a bit. At first look, Jason Statham isn't much to look at. But kicking ass with no shirt on? Damn.

Ok, back to the blog post. It's so hard to think of what to say here now! Jesus Christ! He's driving the car on the two left wheels...

Ah, life is so distracting right now. But focus! Ok, cool things lately:

I noticed last week that when I wear a skirt, my thighs no longer rub together. This is a most excellent thing. Also, I took the girls to the pool Sunday, and I wasn't self-concious at all. I'm not where I'd like to be yet, especially my tummy. But I have two kids, one almost as big as me. I'm looking pretty good. In a two piece!!! Of course I wore a two piece when I was only okay...but now I feel good in it! My tummy will take a while to get where it should be. A lot of it is simply damage from having two kids. But I've made so much progress already I don't mind waiting for more. :)

Best line from the movie so far: "Nope, I am not the gay."

And then he proved he was not the gay. ;)

Okay, enough rambling for now. I shall try my bestest to post more frequently now. Even though I am limited on what I can say. So check both blogs every so often. :)

Fiction Friday

A Prelude


Death is cold. It holds onto you in it's icy grip. It refuses to let go. But there is something stronger. Something only living within a few select souls. It stays hidden beneath the surface and may never show it's face. Until the soul meets an untimely and violent death. Then the beast awakens. And defends itself against death.

Movies and stuff

I finally saw the newest Underworld movie. It had gotten some bad reviews, but I freaking loved it! I was into the characters and it all fit into the other two movies well enough. Sequels generally contradict a tad bit occasionally. I thought it was really good. I would recommend all three Underworld movies to anyone who loves vampire and werewolf movies. They are most excellent. Even if the vampires don't sparkle. ;)

Four years

I totally missed my blogiversary! It was last month sometime. I have been blogging for four years. I've changed a lot and made more than one friend for life through blogging.

I love this place. It's mine. And I share it with you. :)

Found at Xmichra's

Your rainbow is strongly shaded violet.

What is says about you: You are a creative person. You appreciate beauty and craftsmanship. You are patient and will keep trying to understand something until you've mastered it.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.

Too much in my head

I can't get it all organized and out!

Tonight in yoga I learned I am close to doing a headstand. I did the halfway kind with my feet still on the floor, and my teacher said my alignment from head to hip is perfect! I just need to get the balance to put my legs up. I was so tickled! I really like this teacher too, we have several that take turns. I told her I would practice at home alone. Lol.

Let's see, what else. Two birthday parties tomorrow. One of my bestest friend's little boy first at 11. Then a girl from Brianna's dance class at 1. Both at parks. But it will be fun.

And I found out distressing news tonight! T can't do a cartwheel! I'm so shamed. How has she not learned in school? That's where I learned. I shall teach her. Cuz yeah, I can still do one. I could do one before I started working out, I should be able to do it neater now.

I think that's all for now. It isn't much, and I may post in the other place laterish. I really have to clean my apartment tonight. I won't have time tomorrow during the day and it must be clean before tomorrow night. And since my vacuum cleaner is broken it will take forever to get the carpet vacuumed using just the attachments to it and the dustbuster. LOL. But as long as I get most of the fur up, I'm good. :)

If I've missed sending anyone an invite to my other blog, just email. I don't think I have everyone there yet. And I don't invite strangers, so don't bother asking if we aren't already friends.

Busy weekends

Life is all wet right now. Literally. We are having a lot of rain lately. That's a good thing, as things have been too dry in years past. But it makes it hard to do things on the weekends. This weekend we have an inside thing though. Today is Brianna's end of semester Ballet party. They had the tea party in December and today we are having Pizza, Pirates, and Pointe. I can't remember the name of the ballet she is showing today, not sure what I did with the paper she gave out. But anywho, it shall be fun. They are bringing pizza in from Tomato Head downtown. Apparently the owner's daughter takes dance there.

Also have tons of cleaning to do. I am still clearing out stuff that needs to go to storage. I have a trunkful to drop off today. It looks like I've just moved! A box of stuff too small for Brianna, a box of winter clothes, my comforer wrapped up to be stored for summer. (I use a quilt in summer, too hot for a comforter.) More boxes that need to be sorted and put away/given away/stored away. lol. Apparently the year Tristin was gone I just stuffed things into the storage room and ignored it. Hard to catch up with a year's worth of junk. She has most of a room now, and it should be empty by the end of next weekend. We are waiting for her dad to send money for the bed. He refused to send enough, said she didn't need bunk beds. So I said once he pays me what he owes for that loan, I could pay the rest. That should be coming within a couple of weeks. He has some settlement for a wreck coming, blah, blah, blah. I'm not holding my breath, but he seems sincere about it coming this summer.

Ok, off to get ready for the party. Laters. :)

Unintelligible ramblings

I realized to day that I have been avoiding something. I've pushed it aside and just flat don't think about it. It shouldn't bother me, but it does, so I don't think about it. I'm going to stick with that plan, it's working so far.

My stalker at work has backed off...for a while. I got an email today from him after he went home, explaining things I guess. I'm thinking, just drop it! We are co-workers and acquaintances. That's all. Let-it-go. The more he insists he just wants to be friends, the more I don't want to talk to him. It's a vibe I get from him I suppose. I chat with him at work a little, because a lot of times we are the only two there, but he just isn't someone I would talk to otherwise. Hard to explain. So I won't.

I've started wearing perfume more often. I have about four bottles I was never wearing, so now I spritz a bit on occasionally. I don't know if perfume can actually go bad or lose scent (Mich?). But it seems silly to have it and never wear it. I never wondered about what was in the perfume until recently. I looked up what I'm wearing today:

Very Sexy For Her Perfume by Victoria Secret for women. Launched by the design house of Victoria's Secret, Very Sexy For Her fragrance is vibrant and sensuous. It's the ultimate fragrance for the woman who loves everything about being a woman. This feminine scent possesses a blend of pimento, clementine, cactus flower, camellia, hydrangea, mimosa, white amber, musk, vanilla, and blackberries.

I looked up my favorite too:

RALPH LAUREN created SAFARI perfume in 1990. It is the result of the following top fragrance notes: orange, black currant and jasmine. The middle notes are: orris, rose and genet and the base of the fragrance is: sandalwood, cedarwood and vetiver. SAFARI perfume is recommended for casual use.

Now, I don't know how accurate those are. I just googled and found them. Sounds good to me though. :) Mimosa! I luvs mimosas. The tree, not the drink. Never had the drink actually. I should try it. Being Southern and all. Doesn't seem right that I haven't. Damn, now I'm going to have to go google the drink.

More ramblings laterish. I also have pictures I need to post. Brianna's first bike and all. Coming soonish!

Found at Xmichra's

1. Avoid ~ stress and conflict. It triggers down episodes. Unfortunately, it's hard to avoid. :/

2. Castle ~ Awesome new show with Nathan Fillion.

3. Episode ~ Stress causes one of these. lol.

4. Limited ~ points of view annoy me.

5. Nail polish ~ I has many.

6. Dip ~ mmmm.....salsa, french onion. More things I am avoiding.

7. Share ~ I don't like to.

8. Damage ~ is not always noticeable.

9. Improper ~ behavior is sometimes fun.

10. Handle ~ I can handle my life, barely.

(Belated) Fiction Friday

I've had an idea for this story for a few weeks now. Late last night my brain suddenly became inspired and purged it out. It is very rough, but I liked it so I'm posting as is. I may edit it and re-post at a later time.

The Fan

He stepped inside the bar leaving the rain behind. He shook his arms to rid the black leather jacket of water then ran a hand through his hair. The rain had made him late, he didn't want to miss her. Walking through the inner doors he heard before he saw her. She sang the blues. Her voice like velvet, dark and sultry. Moving through the smokey bar he found a seat in the back. He wanted to observe her without being noticed. She wore a long midnight blue dress. It was fitted and clingy all the way down, with a slit up to the middle of her shapely thigh. As she turned it sparkled subtly in the gray room. It was backless and his gaze slid down to that perfect place at the small of her back. She turned again and his gaze shifted up to her full lips. He couldn't see her smokey blue eyes from here, but knew very well the depths of them. Her dark hair was pulled up with a few carefully placed tendrils framing her face.

It was over all too soon. Six songs a night, three times a week. He headed backstage with the single red rose as usual. He would leave it outside her door again. Maybe one day he would have the courage to give it to her face to face.

Maybe one day.