Sunday, October 07, 2018

I try to be a nice person.  I follow rules (mostly) and do what is expected of me.  At work, I always complete tasks I am expected to complete in a timely manner.  I have always been the responsible one.  Sometimes circumstances put me in a position where no matter what I do, only fault is found.  This is the most frustrating position to be in. Especially if you were put in that position deliberately so that you would fail.

At what point does it become impossible to see the bright side?  When does one just hang it up and join the dark side?  The bad guys seem to keep winning while the good guys struggle to keep up.

I have believed for some time now that things tend to work out, eventually.  How you behave will come back to get you.  Karma sets things straight.  Lately, I have had my doubts about this.  I will be doing just fine, being positive and waiting for things to turn out well and boom, self doubt hits.  Followed closely by self pity and a touch of envy.

Things will work out.  I have faith that it will.  The perfect job will come along, hopefully before I'm flat broke.  In the meantime I will kill with kindness and keep my sense of humor.