Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Listening to Music

I’m standing on a bridge
I’m waiting in the dark
I thought that you’d be here by now
There’s nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I’m listening but there’s no sound

Isn’t anyone trying to find me?
Won’t somebody come take me home?
It’s a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won’t you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are
But I…I’m with you
I’m with you

I thought I would have someone by now. All these years wasted. All that time lost. I’m a single mom. I’ve become my mother. I’m not unhappy. I just miss something. Something I can’t quite put my finger on.

I’m looking for a place
I’m searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
Cause nothing’s going right
And everything’s a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn’t anyone trying to find me?
Won’t somebody come take me home?
It’s a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won’t you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are
But I…I’m with you
I’m with you

I’m looking for someone like me. I’m a mess. I don’t fit in. Is there anyone I can fit with? In a crowded room, if you don’t fit in…

…you are still alone.

Oh why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I’m just out of my mind

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Alone

Ok, I know a lot of people live alone for years and enjoy it. My mother for one. I hate being alone. I feel like I've been alone for years. I spent ten years in an extremely lonely marriage. Even when he was physically there I was alone. He couldn't connect with me and I don't think he even cared too.

I know it hasn't been that long since I split with him. And I'm really in no hurry to actually live with someone again. I just want to find someone I can really connect with. Someone to talk to and see sometimes. You know?