Saturday night

I was going to get to go out tonight. I have a sitter lined up and possibly a date with new guy. But yesterday I woke up feeling a little yucky. It got worse as the day went on. I have a cold. An I-don't-want-to-do-anything-but-lay-here cold. My head is stuffy, my nose is only half working, and my throat hurts. This was my first chance in a month to go out, and it will probably be another month before I can go out. And I'm pouting. :(

I'm tired of being stuck home all the time, I feel like I've been stuck home all the time for years. Well, I guess I kinda have. It sucks.

Ok, complaining over. I'll try to restrain from blogging until I feel like sharing something nice.

Huh?

Taurus Horoscope (Apr 20 - May 20)

Your harsh judgments about yourself may come to the surface today, but you might not be clear as to the underlying reason. You think that you won't get what you want, but you probably cannot see the big picture. You must wait until the current situation plays through. Although your actions may not have much impact now, everything can change in just a few days.

Just stuff

I have been single now for one year and two months. About that anyway, I really don't remember which day of the month I became free. I use the word free because I had been wanting freedom for about a couple of years at that point. But sometimes you get stuck. Sometimes the other person involved wants you to be stuck. Its easier than you think to get that way, especially if you have to think about more than just yourself. When there are kids involved you can't just up and leave. You have to be able to take care of the kids.


So one year and two months ago I became free. I have struggled and worked to become more and more independent ever since. Along the way I have met a bunch of people and made a lot of good friends. And I'm still meeting new people and making new friends all the time. And I have something I didn't have two years ago. I have hope for a better, happier future.


New guy didn't get to come over last Saturday. He was moving on Sunday and didn't have everything ready, so we postponed. He was supposed to come over last night, but got sick at work yesterday morning and ended up sleeping all day and didn't make it. He was better this morning, so I guess we will see what happens this week. I get a four day weekend this week. :)

My date

We went to see 30 days of nights. I let him pick the movie. I haven't mentioned the guy I went out with before. I met him the first time a month or so ago, he's a friend of my roommate. Then we started emailing occasionally on myspace. And we went out. I had fun, a nice comfortable, getting to know each other date. :)

And life moves on...

I'm going to a movie Friday night, with a guy. :)

horrible day

I feel like total hell today. Couple of big things, bunch of little things. I woke up sad. That's not good. I'm just really really tired.

Better again

This week has been better. I'm just really moody lately.

Last Friday I went to see Good Luck Chuck with Dane Cook and Jessica Alba. I loved it, very funny. Full of partially nude Dane Cook. Which makes it a must see. ;)

Not really anything else to say. I have a boring life now. :P Maybe I'll do something this weekend worth posting about. :)

fuck

This week in the life of Kat:

A disgusting older man hit on me.

I finally gave up hope on ever dating again.

Dane Cooke was in Knoxville last night and I missed it.

So...

Nothing exciting this weekend. Bubbles youngest turned three and we went to his party Saturday. I spent Sunday doing errands and housework and yet somehow still didn't get a lot done...

My boss is getting free tickets for the Comedy Zone here and invited some of the employees to come with friends. I think I'm going to go. My roommate will already be babysitting her friend's little boy, I think, and she said she would stay home with my girls. Thing is, there are only two other females at work, and I know one isn't going. I don't think the other will go either. I like the people I work with, but don't really know them outside of work. But it would be the first time I get out in weeks.

My ex is making good money again and doesn't understand why I think he's a selfish bastard for offering less than a quarter of his income for childsupport. There's a reason I haven't been able to afford a lawyer to finalize my divorce yet, and we've been split for a year now! But I applied to get the state to force the jackass to pay. He's not happy about that. ;) Once he's paying the correct amount, getting a lawyer to finish the divorce is easy. Insurance and childcare are expensive, and I'm paying for both, plus my regular bills! Even with a roommate, I'm barely making it. Things will smooth out soon though. They always do. And once it's all settled I'm done and don't have to constantly worry like when I was still married to him. :)

Well, I guess that's it. I'll try to update more often. :)

Wanted:

Nice guy with the ability to notice I fucking exist.

hmmm...

Wednesday, August 29th, 2007 PST

Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)

Your dilemma today concerns balancing your personal desires with the needs of others. Rely on your ability to logically analyze the differences and then make decisions based upon what will work best for a larger group. Being selfish today will only create problems. Anyway, you'll get what you want soon enough.

I have internet at home now, and yet I'm posting from work at lunch...There just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day for everything. When did Blogger add the insert video button? I'll have to try that at home.

My ex is going out of state to work again. He leaves Sunday. In a way, I'm glad. He won't be bugging me. But, now I lose my every other weekend of no kids. Of course he hasn't been doing that in about a month or so anyway. But we have a nice balcony on our apartment that's perfect for hanging out. And we won't be loud enough from there to disturb the kids if we have guests over after they go to bed on weekends. Thats what I have in mind for tonight, but people aren't cooperating. :P

Big girls don't cry...

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

Goals

I have a cold

And it's hot as hell outside right now. Maybe hotter. Seriously, I hear some demons may be outsourcing damned souls to help repair Tennessee highways. It's that hot.

In other news, I seem to have lost contact with nearly all my online friends. It's probably my fault. I haven't been on here much. I don't have Internet at home still. It will be the 18th before the damn cable company can put in my phone, cable, and Internet. That's the soonest I can sit around for half the day waiting on the asses. I didn't get a choice of companies because my apartment complex has a freaking contract with them. Where's the incentive to work??? Competition is the American way, right? Who knows anymore. I'm going to work the installation guy's ass off too. It will all be done right and explained thoroughly before he leaves. And if he's cute, I'll get a phone number too. ;)

Ok, that's all I got today, and my lunch is up.

Later peeps...

Yes, I'm still alive...

Sorry I haven't been around much lately. I moved! Into an apartment. My roommate moved with use. It's a three bedroom, pretty roomie for an apartment. The girls are sharing a room, they seem to like that anyway. I still haven't unpacked everything but we are starting to settle in nicely.

Jackass is still being a Jackass, but that should be getting finalized soon. Everything should be settled and smoothed out by...hopefully Christmas. :P

I'll try to post here every now and then on lunch breaks. We don't have internet access at home yet, probably next week. I don't really have time to get online anyway right now. And I'm sure it will speed up my unpacking if I can't get online. hehe.