Thursday, June 16, 2005

Welcome to my life

I'm having a down day. I had to drag myself out of bed this morning. Luckily my husband was here to take care of the kids and he let me sleep late. I need to do about a thousand different things, but I just don't feel like it. I am putting it here, because I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to about it. They just blow it off, and say "Get over it." Well, it isn't that easy. I don't do this much. Just one or two days every few months. It is usually triggered by something specific, and after a day or two I move on. I just get stuck here for a while before moving on. My husband says I need meds, but I don't think it is that serious. It would be like taking antibiotics for a common cold. I'm just down. He is Mr. Optimistic and just doesn't get it. Here are some lyrics from a Simple Plan song that I can relate to.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
And no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life


No worries, I will feel better in a day or two.

2 comments:

ghartstein said...

Happens to me regularly! ANd my wife doesn't get it either. Hope you bounce back quickly.

Kat said...

jin & mr g: Thank you for the support, I already feel a lot better today.
gina: That is exactly how I feel. I did have to be on them once for just a year and I didn't really feel motivated to do anything on them! I just self-medicate with chocolate and write my feelings out now. It works much better.