I have internet at home now, and yet I'm posting from work at lunch...There just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day for everything. When did Blogger add the insert video button? I'll have to try that at home.

My ex is going out of state to work again. He leaves Sunday. In a way, I'm glad. He won't be bugging me. But, now I lose my every other weekend of no kids. Of course he hasn't been doing that in about a month or so anyway. But we have a nice balcony on our apartment that's perfect for hanging out. And we won't be loud enough from there to disturb the kids if we have guests over after they go to bed on weekends. Thats what I have in mind for tonight, but people aren't cooperating. :P

Big girls don't cry...

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

Goals

I have a cold

And it's hot as hell outside right now. Maybe hotter. Seriously, I hear some demons may be outsourcing damned souls to help repair Tennessee highways. It's that hot.

In other news, I seem to have lost contact with nearly all my online friends. It's probably my fault. I haven't been on here much. I don't have Internet at home still. It will be the 18th before the damn cable company can put in my phone, cable, and Internet. That's the soonest I can sit around for half the day waiting on the asses. I didn't get a choice of companies because my apartment complex has a freaking contract with them. Where's the incentive to work??? Competition is the American way, right? Who knows anymore. I'm going to work the installation guy's ass off too. It will all be done right and explained thoroughly before he leaves. And if he's cute, I'll get a phone number too. ;)

Ok, that's all I got today, and my lunch is up.

Later peeps...

Yes, I'm still alive...

Sorry I haven't been around much lately. I moved! Into an apartment. My roommate moved with use. It's a three bedroom, pretty roomie for an apartment. The girls are sharing a room, they seem to like that anyway. I still haven't unpacked everything but we are starting to settle in nicely.

Jackass is still being a Jackass, but that should be getting finalized soon. Everything should be settled and smoothed out by...hopefully Christmas. :P

I'll try to post here every now and then on lunch breaks. We don't have internet access at home yet, probably next week. I don't really have time to get online anyway right now. And I'm sure it will speed up my unpacking if I can't get online. hehe.

So...

The new job is going well. I wasn't thrilled with the way things were working for a while because the girl who didn't really trained me was still around a lot. She's supposed to go part time when she goes back to school in the fall. When she's doing my job, I had nothing to do. But the other day they finally moved me to the desk in the inner office and I am doing my job. She wasn't too thrilled about it. lol. I think they ordered a new computer though. And she will probably get it. bleh. Oh well, the one I inherited isn't very old. And it has a bunch of stuff I need for my job on it.

And I'm moving. Staying in the house just isn't working out, and I'm ok with it. I am getting a three bedroom apartment in my name, and things will be fine. My roommate is going to take one room, the girls will share a room, and hopefully in a year decade or two I can buy a house of my own. :) I need to get a newer car first. I don't like having such an old car. Old cars are too unpredictable.

This coming weekend I'm having a big yard sale. Next weekend I am taking my roommate to see Harry Potter for her birthday Friday, which is actually this weekend but she's going to be out of town, then we are supposed to meet another friend at a club Saturday for her birthday. And Sunday I take the girls to a birthday party for one of their friends. Then the weekend after that I move. It's going to be a busy few weeks.

Updates when I can. :)

Post something, huh?

Ok, well...I start a new job Monday. An office job. No more working nights and weekends for me. ;) What's really cool is my current boss had just decided to give me the department head job over Children's when I got the call from an interview I had a month before. And she also said that if this job doesn't work out for any reason, she would take me back. I hope like hell I wouldn't have to, but it's nice to know the option is there if absolutely necessary.

I am in a rut. Trying to not want to meet someone, but wanting to meet someone, because everyone knows when you want to meet someone, you won't...

I know, I'm nuts. It will happen when I least expect it and I should stop worrying about it. But that's what I do. Worry, obsess, irritate everyone around me with it. :P

On a happier note I have spontaneously stopped biting my nails and they have grown out nicely. And I have the most awesome new silver fingernail polish on them and my toenails. Perhaps a picture to post in a few days. Now if only I had someone to scratch with those nails...

Oh come on, if I hadn't said it, I wouldn't be me. :)

I should post something

But I can't think of anything. hmmm....

Maybe another picture slide show? Nah. I did that at the other place.

Ok, nothing to say.

Maybe later...

I should be ashamed...

I completely missed my second blogiversary. It was April 2nd. Two years of blogging. Even though I don't blog here very often or anywhere very often lately, I still consider myself a blogger. A very busy blogger, but a blogger. :)

So some of you guys out there have known me for about two years. Have I changed much? ;)

Leo

I saw Blood Diamond this week. Twice. Very good movie. And yeah, Leonardo is in it, all hot and sweaty and dirty with an African accent.

There are also some really great shots of the African landscape, some very beautiful mountains. The story will break your heart in some places, but it is definately a must see.

What's going on

I took B to the mountains Sunday. We have pictures. My roommate came too, so there's actually a picture or two of me. I'll post them in a day or twoish.

I took a test last Friday that I didn't really get to study for as much as I wanted, but I made an 88! I did pretty well on a test in another class last week too. My grades aren't as great as I would like, but they aren't bad either. I can't wait for the semester to be over. I'm soooooo tired.

We are having a career fair at school Wednesday. So, I'm going to have copies of a resume ready, and dress nice, but not too nice, and hopefully make some contacts. Working in retail the last six months may have been a great idea after all. I'm really good at smiling and faking my way through shit now. lol. I'm hoping to find someone to start my internship early. I need it for graduation, and I'm down to only four classes, so hopefully there will be people there who won't mind working me part time around my schedule. Why else would they be at a career fair at a community college, right?

Check back in a few days for pictures. :)

Sunny Daze

Spring is in the air

It's warm weather here. My violas are blooming and I need to clean out the flower beds so the other flowers can start growing again. Little B and I have just gotten over colds and T moved to Maryland to live with her dad. It's temporary. I think. After the new gameboy and magenta razor cell phone, she may not want to come back. Mommy is a mean ass you know. ;)

Ok, that's it. Just a shorty update post. Now everyone wave hi to the stalker on your way through.

Movies

For those of you that don't read my other blog, I have a roommate now. I emptied out my downstairs office and that's now her room. This week we watched a couple of awesome movies, so I thought I would blog about it here. It's a nice neutral topic that shouldn't offend those-who-still-read-this-even-though-I-asked-them-not-to. These are not reviews and I didn't want to blow the endings for those who haven't seen them. It's simply my opinions.

First movie, Lady in the Water. We saw that last night. I put off seeing it for so long because of all the "oh it's not all that good" stuff that came out about it. Well, I loved it. It was better than The Village, not as good as Unbreakable or The Sixth Sense. And did you know he wrote the screenplay for Stuart Little?? I loved that movie! But I digress, Lady in the Water was just a tad slow, but still interesting enough to hold my attention. And ask Bubbles, she will tell you just how short my attention span is. The thing is, this movie was rather fantastical in a mythical sort of way, and that just appeals to me. I do believe it may become one of my favorite movies. Oh, and M. Night Shyamalan was in it tons compared to how much he's shown up in his other movies. He's kinda cute too. lol.

But not as cute as my new favorite hunk (after Hugh Jackman and Johnny Depp of course). Leonardo Dicaprio. Yeah, him, amazing isn't it? I mean he always had cute fresh face boyish good looks, but the boy has grown up. And he's hot. Allow me to show you:
















The movie we saw with Leonardo was The Departed. I wasn't completely thrilled with the ending, but it was still a good movie. A very long movie. lol. It had an outstanding cast. Along with Leonardo, it also had Jack Nicholson, Matt Damon, Alec Baldwin, Martin Sheen, and Mark Walburg. It's not a mushy feel-good movie. Lots of shooting, don't let the kids watch. ;)



Speaking of the kids, you have to let them see Cinderella III. The wicked step-bitch gets hold of the magic wand and fucks things up for Cinderelly. No sitting around waiting for help this time, Cinderella goes after her man, but he did get to come to the rescue once. Very balanced. Very feel-good movie. And funny in spots too. :)

New Blog Friends

There are a couple of new links on the sidebar. If you are a blogfriend here or in the other place and I somehow over looked linking to you let me know. :)

Can you believe?

After all this time he still comes here and reads this. grrr. And tells me and comments to me about it and grrrrrrr.

What to do?

I don't fucking like the new blogger

I have shit to post on the other place and I can't because blogger is transferring my stuff and apparently it takes a while and I have to wait for a stupid email and this is just one more thing to piss me off. My bad week has turned into a bad month and I WANT TO POST ABOUT IT BUT I CAN'T HERE BECAUSE OF CERTAIN NOSY ASS PEOPLE WHO WON'T MIND THEIR OWN BUSINESS.

So that's all for now. I should sign off the internet completely I dont' have time for it anymore, but it's one of the very few things that still brings me occasional joy, so I'm here.

fuck.