Reflections

Monday, January 23, 2006

Birthday pictures (part 1)

On B's birthday we took her to the Build-a-Bear shop.

For those that don't know, you pick a stuffed toy, in this case a purple pony, then you get to help stuff it yourself by pushing a foot pedal that works the machine. The stuffing machine is a little noisy, so big sister helped there while B sat with Daddy.

After the pony is stuffed and dressed you have to put her information in the computer to get a certificate. When I asked her what her pony's name was she said "Horsey!" She loves horses.

Here she is with Horsey ready to go.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Movie Review

Tonight I went to see Underworld Evolution. I absolutely loved it. If you haven't seen the first Underworld, why the hell not? Go rent it. Then go see this one. If you have already seen the first one you could re-watch or not. They do a pretty good job of recapping with out boring us to death at the beginning.

Kate Beckinsale plays Selene, a vampire who kicks ass most awesomely while retaining her beauty, grace, and femininity. Scott Speedman plays Michael who at the end of the first Underworld became a hybrid vampire/lycan (werewolf) mix. To use Selene's word, he is "unique". This movie picks up right where the last one left off. Michael is new to the immortal world, although he is a quick study and kicks some serious ass himself. I don't want to spoil anything, so I will stop there. I do feel the need to warn everyone that this one was a bit more gross than the last one. Including one scene where half the audience (including me) uttered a collective "uuuhhhh". It was great.

There were also a couple of pretty good looking previews. One I hadn't heard of before. It was called Ultraviolet. I want to see it, if I can find someone to go see it with. They also had a preview for the new Xmen movie. It comes out in May, and I can't wait to see Hugh Jackman in his most sexy role as Wolverine, kicking ass.

Oh, did I mention that Underworld Evolution has a love scene in it? A very nice love scene. Go see it!

Scott Speedman and Kate Beckinsale

Friday, January 20, 2006

Fiction Friday ~

A Scorned Woman

Betrayal. Broken. Lonely. Sometimes those aren't just words. Sometimes they are deep feelings that can acutally make your chest hurt. Like someone has torn your heart from your chest and left an empty, gaping hole. I loved him. Trusted him. I was a fool.

There are worse things than physical pain. Worse things.

He promised not to hurt me. He lied.

He won't do it again.

Bitch

I was sitting in my car last night waiting for T to get out of ballet class, and I start looking at the cds in my car. Here are a few titles:

Evanescence ~ Fallen
Nickelback ~ The Long Road
The Essential Bangles
Simple Plan ~ Still not getting any...
One homemade cd with Creed, Greenday, 3 Doors Down, and Sugar Ray
Enya ~ A Day Without Rain
Enya ~ Memory of Trees
Norah Jones~ Come Away With Me
The Very Best of Randy Travis
The Very Best of Sheryl Crow
The Grease Soundtrack

AND

A Meredith Brooks cd I bought just for the song Bitch, because it is soooo me!

What cds are in your car??

Lyrics to Bitch

I hate the world today
You're so good to me I know but I can't change
tried to tell you but you look at me like maybe I'm an angel
underneath
innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
all rolled into one

Chorus: I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your health, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
and I'm going to extremes
tomorrow I will change
and today won't mean a thing

Chorus

Just when you think you've got me figured out
the season's already changing
I think it's cool you do what you do
and don't try to save me

Chorus

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
when you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numbed, I'm revived
can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

My dog

Have I have told you guys that I have a dog? Her name is Tara and she is 6 years old. She is a golden retriever, and she is so sweet! Her face is starting to turn white now. Here is a picture with little B using her for a pillow.

You can see one of our kitties in the background too. That's Charlie.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Why Parents Drink

I got this in an email, and it was too funny not to share here!

The boss of a large company, needing to talk to one of his employees about an urgent computer problem, phoned the employee's home and was greeted with a child's whisper. "Hello." "Is your daddy home?" he asked."Yes," whispered the small voice."May I talk with him?"The child whispered, "No."Surprised, the boss asked, "Is your Mommy there?""Yes.""May I talk with her?"Again the small voice whispered, "No."Hoping there was someone with whom he could leave a message, the boss asked, "Is anyone else there?""Yes," whispered the child, "a policeman."Wondering what a cop would be doing at his employee's home, the boss asked, "May I speak with the policeman?""No, he's busy ", whispered the child."Busy doing what?""Talking to Daddy and Mommy and the Fireman," came the whispered answer. Growing increasingly more concerned as he heard what sounded like a helicopter through the earpiece on the phone the boss asked, "What is that noise?""A hello-copper." answered the whispering voice."What is going on there?!?" asked the boss, now truly alarmed. In an awed whisper the child answered, "The search people just landed their hello-copper."Alarmed, concerned, and more than just a little frustrated the boss asked, "What are they searching for?"Still whispering, and with a muffled giggle, the young voice replied:"ME!!"

Guest HNT

In honor of her new blog. Bubbles is my guest HNTer this week. More of me next week! ;)

This picture was taken a week before Christmas. It's time for another Girls Night Out, don't you think?

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Baby Reflections

Look in the window!

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Horoscope

According to Redbook magazine, this is my horoscope for this month:

Taurus:

An extra dose of creative energy could result in a work-from-home gig. Focusing now will lead to long-term payoff. Your imaginative thinking will also help resolve a delicate family matter and bring you closer.

Damn, I hope they are right!

Monday, January 16, 2006

Hollow

I'm depressed. It happens from time to time. Usually it only lasts a couple of days. Lately I have been thinking about people who do whatever they want, whenever they want. Dishonest people. People who refuse to follow the rules. Is it just me, or do they seem to be the ones who are happy? Now I don't mean really bad people like murderers. I mean the type of people who lie, cheat, and break little rules to get what they want. Sometimes it is only moral rules they break.

I consider myself an honest person. I'm not a good liar anyway. I follow rules. I do what I am SUPPOSED to do. And yet, I'm the one who is not trusted. Not trusted by those that I don't trust because I have caught them in lies, I know they are dishonest.

It brings back memories of my teen years when I lived with my dad and step-mom. They never trusted me, flat out told me they didn't believe what I was telling them sometimes even though I was telling the truth. It just wasn't what they wanted to hear. I still don't know why. It wasn't like I had been caught lying to them. They just assumed when I moved in that I was a liar. And years later it turned out they were the deceitful ones. The ones with secrets.

I am 33 years old. But sometimes I feel like I am still that girl. Young, confused, alone, empty.

Mural

This tag is based on the idea of a wall mural. We start with a plain brick wall and people add something to it and pass it on. What you draw on is up to you. It can be related to your web-site. Preferably include your web-site URL in it. Each drawing does not have to be isolated from other peoples ones, overlapping images will look good. Try to use about 10% of the area.

The image is 400×300 and is a PNG file. Save the file to your computer and add in your artwork and post on your blog. Then tag other people to do the same. It is preferable to leave the file as PNG file rather than convert to JPG otherwise the quality is going to suffer over multiple edits.

Tag History (Add your URL here. Please include the URL to your post that contains the image rather than just your main page):

1. ben.run

2. halfpie

3. dee.run

4. xmichra

5. kat

If you are number 10, then please leave a comment at ben.run giving a link to the final mural.

I'm not going to tag anyone specific, but if you want to do it leave a comment.

Sunday, January 15, 2006

A little about me.

I saw this at Xmichra's blog, and I thought it looked fun.

WARNING: Some questions may be a little TMI. If you don't wanna know, don't read it. ;)

1. Given a homeless guy more than R5? (I checked and this is a little less than a US dollar) Yes, but not much more.

2. Spent more than R500 on a bf/gf's gift or a night out. (About $83) No, it's the guy's job to pay.

3. Had sex with more than one person in a day? No

4. Hooked up with a good friends bf/gf behind their back? Yes, but in my defense, I was a little drunk.

5. Dated two people at once? No

6. Actually met someone that you met online that you didn't know before? No.

7. (deleted)

8. Failed more than one class? Yes, but not many.

9. Took someone's virginity when you weren't a virgin? Yes. *blushing*

10. Hooked up with someone from a different race? No.

11. Ran around naked outside in the daytime/night time? Hasn't everyone?

12. Scuba dived? No

13. Snorkled? No

14. Dated someone you didn't want your friends to meet? No

15. Got your stomach pumped from alcohol poisoning / drugs etc? No

16. Threw up from alcohol? Only once.

17. Been suspended from school? No

18. Kissed someone of the same sex? No

19. Wore no underwear? Of course.

20. Paint anyone's toenails? Only my daughters, and maybe my sister.

21. Met someone famous? Troy Aikman-he's a complete ASS! I was serving beer at the celebrity softball game in Nashville one year, he had a mouthfull of food and actually GRUNTED and pointed at the kind he wanted. I wanted to meet one of those hot singers, but all I got was a dim-witted football player.

22. Saved someone's life? No.

23. Seen someone die? No.

24. Killed someone? No.

25. Been in a physical fight? No.

26. Hooked up with someone 10yrs older or younger than you? No.

27. Been arrested? No.

28. Spent the night in jail? No.

29. Been in more than three car accidents in a year? No.

30. Had sex outside? Duh. A couple of times.

31. Given or gotten road head? Yes.

32. Had sex in your house when your/his/her parents were home? Yes and yes.

33. Had phone sex? No.

34. Been turned off by someone's personal hygiene "down there"? No and EEEEWWWW.

35. Watched Jerry Springer? Just part of one.

36. Had sex without a condom? Yes.

37. Had a one night stand? Yes, and it wasn't all that great.

38. Flirted with a teacher? No

39. Had sex on the beach? The drink, yes. The act, no.

40. Watched porn with someone else? Yes and I didn't like it.

41. Been fired from a job? Yes, but it was a telemarketing job, and I don't think it should count.

42. Danced on top of a bar? No

43. Had sex somewhere in your high school? No

44. Bought a vibrator? No

45. Been in a porn shop? Yes, and it was sooooo embarassing.

46. Been in a dance competition? No

47. Had a threesome? No

48. Spent more than one night in a hospital? Yes, two cesareans.

49. What color are your kitchen plates? Pale yellow with blue trim and flowers.

50. What book are you reading now? None right now. Who has time to read?

51. Favorite magazine? Redbook.

52. Baked Goods? Birthday cake, toll house chocolate chip cookies and fresh yeast bread with honey butter.

53. What's the first thing you think of in the morning? Five more minutes!

54. How many rings before you answer the phone? Two or three

55. Favorite TV shows? Charmed, L&O Criminal Intent, Crossing Jordan, CSI, Reba.

56. Ketchup or mustard? burgers, hotdogs and sandwiches-mustard. fries and onion rings-ketchup

57. Hamburgers or Hot dogs? hamburgers

58. The best place you have ever been? Disney World! It really is the happiest place on earth.

59. The most amazing sight? My babies right after they were born.

60. What wall paper is on your computer right now? A dragon.

No tags on this one, but if you decide to do it leave me a comment so I can come see!

Friday, January 13, 2006

A Quickie

I was talking to a friend today about Half-Nekkid Thursday and how it is followed by Fiction Friday. Only I had a little slip of the tongue and said "Friction Friday". Talk about your Freudian Slips!

Scroll down for this week's Fiction Friday.

Fiction Friday

I first saw them in the evening light. He was boyishly handsome with dark curly hair and dimples. The woman at his side was pretty as well. She had long straight black hair and high cheekbones, a descendant of this country's natives perhaps. I rushed to the hall as they entered the house. Then paced nervously as the toured the downstairs. Finally they ascended the staircase and I was able to get a closer look. He was at least six feet tall maybe a bit more. She was about a foot shorter and I looked straight into her soft brown eyes. She was smaller than the last three women to come here, but younger. I hoped her body would be strong enough.

I rushed towards her using all my force to propel her backwards down the stairs. I dimly recall hearing the man yell her name. She landed at the bottom on her side. I kneeled next to her, she was still breathing, but barely. The man joined us and rolled her to her back. There was only a small amount of blood on her temple. That was good, the other three had bled so much their bodies could not last. He had a phone with him and he called for help.

Finally her spirit left her body. The man cried out again and began pressing on her chest. The others hadn't done that, perhaps it would make a difference. Her spirit looked away from the living couple and looked at me. "Who are you?"

"I am your guide. It is your time to leave this place. Do you see a light?"

"Yes, but I don't want to leave Bryan!" She began crying.

"It is your time. You must hurry before the light fades."

She hesitated a second longer then gasped "I see my grandmother." She was looking somewhere behind me, I couldn't see who she spoke of or the light. "Go to her, quickly!"

As she passed me she thanked me. I felt a twinge of guilt then. I was no guide, but I did know if she didn't hurry the light would fade. I knew the long dark years of loneliness here when nobody can see you.

The man was still pressing on her chest and breathing into her. As I entered her body I felt a moment of pain, then darkness.

There were voices and something beeping. The light was so bright it took a moment for me to focus. The man from the house talking with another man in a white coat. He looked like a doctor. I tried to sit up, but the pain in my head prevented it. I must have made some sound because they both looked over at me.

"Anna, you're awake!" He looked different here in this brighter world. The doctor checked me and began asking me questions. I couldn't answer them truthfully, so I simply feigned ignorance.

I was beginning to grow used to the man called Bryan. He looked so worried and it was my fault. "I'm sorry, please don't be mad."

"It's alright darling, but I need to talk to the doctor now." They left the room and a nurse came in. Everyone was so nice to me at the hospital, I could tell they felt sorry for me.

Over the next few months it was all explained to me. Bryan was my husband, we had only been married a year. He was so kind and eventually didn't even ask about what he first called my personality changes. But then I know how to please a husband. I did it for four years before my last husband finally pushed me too hard and I ended up at the bottom of that same staircase Anna died on. Bryan is kind and gentle. Loving and taking care of him will be no problem. He even confessed last night how happy he is that I have decided I want children after all. Anna didn't know how good she had it.