Once you've learned to be lonely

I've been listening to Reba today, because that's what I do when I'm a little down. I listen to country music. One of her songs has always struck a familiar chord in my heart. The lyrics are very powerful.

• But once you've learned to be lonely
  And lonely is the only thing you've known
  It begins to feel like home
  It becomes your comfort zone
  Once you've learned to be without someone
  And settle for the silence of an empty room
  Oh,it changes you
  There's a lot you have to undo
  Once you've learned to be lonely

Lonely is doing things yourself without asking for help, because you've become so used to having to.

Lonely is taking care of your eight month old with only the help of your six year old less than a week after galbladder surgery.

• It becomes a habit of the heart
  To be afraid and even start
  To try and love again

Lonely is not believeing in Soul Mates.

Lonely is not being afraid of being completely alone when the children grow up, it's knowing you will be alone.

I'm really not as down as this post sounds. This is just some stuff that's been accumulating and needed to come out.