Tired of the last title

I'm still not posting here regular, but I was tired of the old title being at the top of my beautiful abandoned blog. :P

Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas, or whatever winter holidays you chose to celebrate.

pissed off

Ok, so I have a secret blog. I have deleted what little used to be there, because I don't feel like sharing it. But I think I'm going to have to start using my secret blog as my regular blog. This blog will still be here, because it's MINE. But I don't expect to post to it for a while.

If you want the new address, email me.

PLEASE no links to it, and don't share it with anyone, I'll share the url. I'll still comment on your blogs with my Kat username. Maybe eventually I can start posting here again because it's me, very personalized, and my new blog won't be. It may be a while before I post to either, I'm at the last two weeks of the semester.

Ok, signing out as Kat for a while.

fuck

i'm drinking alone on a thursday, how pathetic is that???

how do i get that one person whom i've asked fifteen million times to stay the fuck off my blog to actually stay the fuck off my blog?!?! i have a statcounter, i know you are there! i want to share things with my friends and i can't because you are fucking there!

someone please explain to me in very simplistic terms how to tell if someone is interested in you. And how do you make sure they know your interested without making a total ass of yourself in case they aren't interested??? I'm a total social retard.

starting over sucks. especially when you are old. and i don't feel old but i'm not young. you know?

ever notice how when you are drinking that the shift key doesn't work right?

Untitled

I now know the definition of hell. It's working retail the weekend after Thanksgiving. I had a nightmare one night about putting up clothes from the dressing room, everytime I went back there were more and more clothes and it never ended. Friday, I woke up in that nightmare. And let me tell you, after Thanksgiving bargain shoppers are pigs. Maybe not all of them, sort of like when you say all men are bastards, not all are, but most are. So, on that train of thought, most bargain shoppers are pigs. P-I-G-S.

But things aren't all bad. I was invited out by a girl at work for a girls night out last Friday. I couldn't go, but hey I got invited out! Next step, actually getting out! Meeting more people. Getting out again, and again. And umm... well. You know, actually getting a life! ;)


Ok, as a treat, some eye candy.

Regurgitation of last year's post

Ode to Thanksgiving

Grandma's in the kitchen,
Cookin' up turkey.
Brother's new girlfriend,
Is way too perky.

Momma left before dawn,
To hit sales at the mall.
Daddy's in the recliner,
Cussin' at football.

Sister brought vodka,
She'll be drunk before noon.
We all avoid Aunt May,
She's the family loon.

Spending time with family,
Is a reason for living.
And I almost forgot,
Have a Happy Thanksgiving!

BTW, I know the Christmas music is a little early, but we've been listening to it at work for weeks and this song is stuck in my head, so now I'm sharing it with you. ;)

Stuff

I was playing around online and found this stuff. There are some quizzes from Bubble's place below the astrology stuff.


Your Sun Sign: Taurus Sun 13° Taurus 46' What's a sun sign?


Element:
Earth
Key Planet:
Venus

You aren't necessarily like a Bull in a ring with a toreador. You could be more like peace-loving Ferdinand, seeking the gentle meadows filled with flowers, sunshine and natural beauty. It's only your stubbornness that can make you angry enough to charge at someone who is disturbing your peace. You Bulls are noted for your determination. You get to where you are going, not because you are exceptionally fast or clever, but because you will not be distracted from your goals.

Motto: "Take care of the senses and everything else will take care of itself.”
Greatest Strength: Your sensible outlook on life
Possible Weakness: Accepting less than you can achieve


Your Moon Sign: Capricorn Moon 15° Capricorn 57' What's a moon sign?




A strong sense of responsibility is likely to make you mature beyond your years. You tend not to give yourself much slack, especially when it comes to emotion. While this is great for being productive, it can make intimacy more of a challenge. Recognizing your inner needs generally requires effort since your obligations to the world often take precedence over your personal desires. Allowing yourself to feel vulnerable without immediately fixing the situation can be healthy because you need to baby yourself from time to time. This tenderness towards yourself is an act of trust and forgiveness that can soften your hard edges and show you that life is about more than getting ahead of staying in control.

Motto: "Trying harder always works."
Greatest Strength: Inner discipline and a strong sense of responsibility
Possible Weakness: Being too tough on yourself


Your Rising Sign: Sagittarius Ascendant 26° Sagittarius 15' What's a rising sign?




You're a natural teacher, promoter or salesperson. With Sagittarius Rising you share what you know with high energy and enthusiasm like a preacher or a cheerleader. You tend to blow through the negativity others present by pushing forward your beliefs without showing any doubt. It's this obvious optimism that lifts you and those around you, bringing hope to the darkest of situations. But your natural focus tends to more on the big picture than on little details. Overlooking the small stuff can be a great asset at times because it keeps you from being distracted, but there are circumstances where it's important to bring your focus back from the far end of the horizon to an issue that's right in front of you.

Motto: "If I know something, I'll tell you about it."
Greatest Strength: Inspiring others with positive ideas
Possible Weakness: Coming across as a know-it-all


Your Chinese Sign: The Rat


The RAT … THE RELENTLESS RAT

Mantra: My charm helps me survive.

Determined when he or she wants something, the Rat will work hard to get it. Rats are also very conscious and measured around money. But under their calm, charming veneer, aggression may be lurking. The Rat uses intellectual power for critical decision-making and is a mastermind when it comes to small details. Practical, but sometimes lacking vision and courage, the Rat can block his or her success because of greed and conservatism. Inner fear makes Rats unpredictable -- so don't let their charm fool you.

You think?

You Are A Poplar Tree

People tend to look up to you, and it's a bit lonely at the top. Inside, you are not always self confident, but you show great courage. Mature and organized, you are reliable in any situation. You tend to have an artistic or philosophical outlook on life. You are very choosy in love and take partnership seriously.

What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are very independent and self-centered. You don't solve other people's problems - and you don't expect them to solve yours. Your idea of fashion is jeans and a t-shirt. Clean, if you're lucky. You are a little shy and easily embarrassed. You often wonder if you are normal. In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

Letting go

I won't be around here much anymore. This place here isn't what it used to be. It's just a sad reminder of it. I'm too tired to keep up with it. I miss what it was, and I'm afraid it will never be that way again.

I thought about just deleting it and my gmail account and just disappearing. I've thought about doing that a lot over the last few months. But there are too many people here I would miss. And I think I even have a lurker I haven't met yet. If you are too shy to comment, email me. I think there's a link to do that on my profile page. I'd like to meet you.

I will still try to read other blogs and comment occasionally and I'll try to post a few times a month. You guys can also email me anytime if you want to. :)

I leave you for now with Alanis Morrisette. I'll try to change that out at least once a month. Most likely whatever song is stuck in my head at the moment I change it. ;)

Don't you hate it when you ask someone to stop reading your blog and they won't?

A little fun before starting homework

I stole this from Xmichra.

You are The High Priestess

Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.

The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

I'm going to ramble now

I just realized I never added Karma to my sidebar! So I did. If I missed anyone else, tell me.

I had another test today in my PC Hardware class, on hard drives. I made an 85, but with the curve it went up to a 96.

My boss is pissing me off. I discussed my hours with her a couple of weeks ago and she cut me back a little, but now she is giving me more again. AND I have to work at least four Sundays between now and Christmas. I was only working one Sunday a month. I told her before she hired me that Sundays are hard. This week I work Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. School is Monday and Wednesdays. I'm there about five hours. So it's not like a couple of one hour classes. It's a three hour class and a one and a half hour class. She said she might give me Tuesday off. Lot of good that does. I have to go out to school sometime Tuesday for the Financial Aid fair. So I never have a day when I have nothing to do. I miss spending time with my toddler. Whenever I am at home I have to clean something, or she wants to play with my oldest, which is nice, but Mommy wants lovin's too!

Speaking of lovin's...

I'm not getting any. Yeah. That's what I meant. It just hit me this week, ok? None. Nada. Zip. I didn't even want it before! But now I kinda do. I should get some new toys. ;)

I haven't dyed my hair in a while, and I miss doing it. The thrill of fresh new color! So, I'm thinking I might do it again. Even though the reason I stopped for a while was because my hair is a bit dryish. So, what do you guys think? To dye, or not to dye. Did I mention we are reading Hamlet in English? We are. What was I sayin? Oh yeah, my hair. Any suggestions on the color? It's light brown/dark blonde naturally. I could go blonder, haven't done that in a while. Or I could go red again. Last time I did it didn't quite come out though. But I could try a different red. Maybe a darker red.

Ok, I should get off of this and work on an essay I have to do. It's not due until Monday, but I won't have much time this weekend to work on it.

I was wet today, but not in the good way...

It's rainy today. Rainy and chilly and icky. So it was a blah day. Not bad or sad, just blah. I had to work and it was nice when I went so I didn't bother wearing my coat. I wore the cutest little pink shirt with white sleeves so that it looks layered but it's just one shirt. Anyway, it's cute but not much to keep out the chills. When I left work it was raining. I got wet going to the car, running into the bank, running into the store, running into my mom's to get the girls, I was just dampish and chilly for a couple of hours. And no, I don't have an umbrella. I used to, but I don't know where it went and frankly, with a toddler in tow you tend to get more wet if you try to use an umbrella anyway. I usually wear a certain jacket I have that isn't really a raincoat, but keeps the damp out.

While I was in the kitchen getting dinner ready I was hit with this feeling that something is coming. But not something bad, it wasn't a forboding, it was a good feeling. A warm and toasty feeling. It was a really strong feeling too. After today warm and toasty would be rather nice. :)

Xmichra's meme, finally

1. You get to live a life of a character in any book. Who’s life would you live?? That's hard. hmmm.. Well it would have to be an extraordinary character. I read a set of books once about shapeshifters and one chick was awesome. But I can't remember the name of the trilogy. heh. I've forgotten more books then some have read. Anne Rice's characters are awesome, but her vampires don't get to have sex, that sucks. lol. I could follow Xmichra's example and pick an Amorlia character, that's the only book I've read in months anyway, lol. How about the werecat, Sa'raa? That's pretty cool even though she lost her love and has to be immortal. You know I'm starting to just like my own life. ;)

2. I am taking you out to dinner. My treat, and the sky is the limit. What do you order, and where do we go? The restaurant upstairs in Cinderella's castle at Disney World. (I forgot the name of it) They have this amazing pork dish (which I also forgot the name of). It came with some little red potatoes that melted in your mouth. mmmm. Very good, very expensive. We used our free meal there when we went two years ago. ;)

3. You have to irradiate a color, a number, a letter and a vegetable from this planet. What would they be, and why?? Color: Vols orange. I'm so sick of UT football already. I like some oranges, especially around fall, but this bright orange that is draped everywhere has got to go. I guess it goes with living in a college city. A number: hmmm... I like all numbers. yeah, really. Letter:J because I can't make it in cursive right. And YES that is really the only reason. I promise. Vegitable: Turnip. Why? Just say it "tuuurnipppp" It's an icky word for an icky root.

4. You get to have a whole day to yourself, and spend as much money as you want. What would you do? Just a day? I suppose that cuts out traveling. How about half the day at the spa getting an all over massage (work hurts my little body), a facial and microdermawhatever they call it, and a pedicure. Then the other half at the mall shopping! I miss shopping.

5. You are another race. What did you choose and why? Asian. First off, I would probably still be petite and I like being petite. :) Second off, I just think they are beautiful. ex: Kelly Hu (Xmen 2), Sandra Oh (Grey's anatomy, I just love that show), Yunjin Kim (Lost), Lucy Liu. I could go on with the examples for days.

6. You get to decide the religion of the world.. everyone will follow it. What would it be? How about I don't answer this on the basis that I live in the south and prefer not to discuss politics and religion. ;)

7. I give you a pencil, paper and wave some creative faerie dust on you, what do you make? The Great-American-Novel of course.

8. If you could go back in your life, what would you change?? These questions are soooo hard. It's easy to say, oh wow I screwed that up, but if you change it then you may lose out on something good that resulted from it. So, nothing to change. I chose to suffer through all my stupid mistakes because I learned from them.

9. Your life is falling apart. Seriously falling to pieces.. no dramatics. You are losing your job, your house, your spouse, everything is on the verge of crashing. What would you do? I saved the house, lost the SUV, but have a new/old car, divorce is imminent but I'm still able to work part time and go to school. OH wait, you meant hypothetically, I was confused cuz my life sort of did fall apart. :P

10. Just for fun, you get to ask any question to me. And I will try my best to answer. What will you ask? A question for Xmichra: hmmm... If you could live in whatever city in the world that you wanted just for a year, then go back home, all expenses covered, what city would you live in, just for the experience?

Just stuff

I was driving home from the store admiring the golden, orange, and red of the hills/ridges/whatever surrounding the little area we live in and I realized something. I'm happy. When the hell did that happen? I've been so busy with work and school that I haven't really thought about it.

I want to thank everyone for the compliments on our Halloween costumes. :)

Last week, I lost my keys. For two days. Luckily I have a spare set. My oldest daughter finally found them in a kitchen drawer. Monday I realized my Ipod was missing. I found it that night on the mantle partially hidden by Bastet and a candle holder. Next thing I lose will be my mind.

Remember the 100 I made on my Computer test last week? I was the only one. I messed up the chance of a curve. That tickles me just a little. ;)

Newly Issued Alcohol Warnings

The American Board of Health has proposed that warning signs be placed on all alcohol bottles to tip off drinkers about the possible peril of drinking a pint or two of any alcoholic beverage.

1. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may cause you to wake up with a breath that could knock a buzzard off a wreaking dead animal that is one hundred yards away.

2. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol is a major factor in dancing like an idiot.

3. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may cause you to tell the same boring story over and over again until your friends want to assault you

4. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may cause you to thay shings like thish.

5. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may cause you to tell the boss what you really think of him.

6. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol is the leading cause of inexplicable rug burn on the forehead.

7. WARNING: Consumption of alcohol may create the illusion that you are tougher, handsomer and smarter than some really, really big guy named Psycho Bob.

Check out this list

Denise has put up a rapist checklist. Everyone should read it, you may be surprised to find what is on there.

I'm a finalist at Sar's caption contest! Now click this link to Belle of the Brawl, go down the sidebar, and vote for me! My caption is really funny. And if I win, I will be in a really good mood and may decide to post a really good Half-Nekkid Thursday. So, go vote. ;)

Tired

I'm very tired. I have been working day shifts at work which is nice because I have more of my evenings back. The girl's bedtimes are back to normal too. Unfortunatly I am not a morning person. I am a night owl and even though I'm about to drop now, by the time the kids are in bed and I can settle down (around 9ish) I'll be wide awake.

Tomorrow my manager has me scheduled 8-8 to help with an inventory. Yes, I said 8-8. Twelve hours. I will get my kids up tomorrow morning, and drop them off at Bubble's house, she's going to take them with her to her church. Then when my mom gets home she's going to take them to her. Really, who would watch my kids for twelve freaking hours?!?!? *ahem* Anyway, by the time I pick them up from my mom's it will be just after bedtime, so I will just bring them home and put them to bed. My manager is nuts. Did I mention our store is only open 11-7 on Sundays? I get that she needs me early for inventory. What I don't get is why I have to stay so late. Why not 8-5 or 8-4. I get an hour lunch, which is good, because I'm pretty sure if I don't run home and let my dog out, that she will explode before that night. Twelve hours. I've never worked that long before. Not on my feet, and we aren't allowed to wear tennis shoes! I'm thinking of wearing them anyway and daring her with my smartassiest look to say something. hehe.

I only work one Sunday a month, and inventories are rare. I got a call last night from a lady at my mom's church, she wants the girls to come be in the pageant again this year. Sunday evenings 5ish for an hour or so. She's known me most of my life so she doesnt even care that we almost never go to church anymore. My mom told her that I'm back in school and working too. She even offered to drive the girls because she lives near us. I'm not sure little B would go for that though.

Speaking of Little B, we are potty training still. She uses the potty some, but won't always go when we ask. She has even gone at publc toilets a couple of times and stayed dry. Some mornings she wakes up dry and asks to go. The other day I tried to get her to go to the potty, "no, i don't have to potty" she said. About ten minutes later she got this distant look on her face then grinned and said "i peed in my pullup!" *sigh* I put panties on her for a while today. She peed in the floor, but she seemed surprised and not real happy, so hopefully if I keep her in panties while she plays she will go potty more.

Ok, well, between the huge shift tomorrow and school monday and morning shift on Tuesday and school on Wednesday I may not be around much. I have Thursday off, my manager did cut one of my weekdays out like I asked. I'm going to take little B to Storytime at the library and do something with her at home too before we go get our groceries. I miss her this week. I will try to make my rounds of everyone's blog here and there, and may post something short if I can. I'm not sure about another Fiction Friday this week yet. Maybe.

Oh yeah, and I know I've had the same song here for a while, but I really love it. It's my favorite Madonna song ever. So, it may be around a while longer. Here's the lyrics:


This used to be my Playground
Madonna

This used to be my playground [used to be]
This used to be my childhood dream
This used to be the place I ran to
Whenever I was in need
Of a friend
Why did it have to end
And why do they always say

Dont look back
Keep your head held high
Dont ask them why
Because life is short
And before you know
Youre feeling old
And your heart is breaking
Dont hold on to the past
Well thats too much to ask

(long and movie versions only:)

(chorus)

(chorus)

No regrets
But I wish that you
Were here with me
Well then theres hope yet
I can see your face
In our secret place
Youre not just a memory
Say goodbye to yesterday [the dream]
Those are words Ill never say [Ill never say]

This used to be my playground [used to be]
This used to be our pride and joy
This used to be the place we ran to
That no one in the world could dare destroy

(short and movie versions only:)

This used to be our playground [used to be]
This used to be our childhood dream
This used to be the place we ran to
I wish you were standing here with me

This used to be our playground [used to be]
This used to be our childhood dream
This used to be the place we ran to
The best things in life are always free
Wishing you were here with me

If anybody cares...

...I changed the name of the girl in my story from Diedre to Delia. It wasn't fitting her and this lady on my show is named Delia and I just looooove it. ;)



Update
Here's a funny footnote for those that are reading Amorlia. I looked up the name meaning, because that's important when naming characters, and I found this:
The girl's name Delia is pronounced DEEL-yah. It is of Greek origin, and its meaning is "from Delos." Mythology: the island of Delos was Artemis's birthplace.

Fiction Friday

Mystery Girl ~ Part 2


Read Part 1 here.


Delia watched the red VW sputter off then she turned to walk the three blocks home. Her mind automatically reached out to "feel" her surroundings. A homeless man in the alley was asleep and dreaming of Thanksgiving dinner as a child. A father getting out of his car was rushing to see his boy before bedtime. The old man across the street walking his dog was eyeing her thinking dirty thoughts about her, but only to keep for himself later, he was harmless. There was nobody nearby thinking of her, looking for her.

The night was crisp and clear with a hint of fall in the air. She wrapped her sweater around her a little tighter as she turned the corner to go one more block. She let her thoughts stray back to Richard, the only person who had been able to track her down in five years. He must have some small talent himself. He managed to get people to remember her. She knew from his thoughts that he was tipped off about her weekly trip to the restaurant. That would have to stop now. It had been careless of her to have such a regular schedule.

Pulling forgotten details from someone would be a useful trick for her search. It must be why he chose journalism as a profession. She told herself that his talent was the reason she let him remember her tonight. That was why she would call him later. Why she would meet with him again and maybe ask for his help. The fact that he was adorable had nothing to do with it at all.

A super good day, and VS

I had a most wonderful day today. I haven't been able to study much this past week and today I had a test in both classes. I was super worried about it. The test in PC Hardware was actually broken into two tests. It's on the computer so we get our grades as soon as we finish the test. The part about electricity was the hard one, I made an 81, but with the curve, it pushed it to a 95! The second test was on the math we've done. Binary, Octal, and Hexidecimal conversions. Binary math (logic stuff, not, and, or), and some electricity formulas. I made 100! :) Not only did I get a perfect score, but when I finished and the computer told me I missed one, I called the teacher over to point out that the scoring was wrong. hehe. He cuts and pastes so the test isn't the same every year, and occasionally he misses one when changing the key.

I had a test in English too. I don't know what the grade is yet, but I'm pretty sure I did well on it. I did get my essay back. It was the first big essay and project we did a couple of weeks ago. I made an 88, which is a B. I was worried about it. Some of the basic stuff has left me after so long out of school. I did perfect on the grammer part. The part I messed up was the intro paragraph, it wasn't smooth enough with the thesis of the paper and all. And I didn't get the quoting and documenting quite right. And, we got the our next essay assignment. It is half fiction! I have to pick a fairy tale and rewrite it. I haven't looked it all over though, I need to see what else it says.



It's that time of year again. You know what I mean. Millions of women are receiving in their mailboxes, this:

The annual Victoria's Secret, Christmas edition catalog. Isn't that the cutest little skirt and hat you've ever seen? I'd love to have that for Christmas. Along with a tummy tuck to look good in it. ;)














How about the Victoria's Secret Hearts on Fire Diamond Fantasy Bra, only $6,500,000.

2,000 'perfectly cut' Hearts On Fire diamonds. 800-carats.










Do you know what one of my favorite parts of the VS catalog is? The boots!!!!! OMG, they have the most wonderful boots! I have a pair I ordered from them a couple of years ago, black lace up boots. I love them. Here are a few I like off the website.

Lace up



















And sparkly

Because I can

I just downloaded Microsoft Word onto my laptop for school, I get it free for two months. I’m posting this in pretty script, because I can. I love blogger, but their fonts are boring as hell.           

Have I told you lately...

...that I love ya?

No, actually I wanted to ask if I have told you guys that I have a job as well as going to school. Yes, I'm too tired (or lazy, whatever) to check my own damn archives. (Although I do love you guys! Well, most of you. hehe.) So, I have a part time job at a local retail shop. Right now I'm working three short closing shifts during the week and one long ass shift on Saturdays. But I'm about to cut that back to only Tuesday and Thursday nights and Saturday because it's too much, I'm getting behind in my classes. And I don't have time to blog!

The good thing is that the corporate office is just down the road, and I'm assuming they have people there to fix the computers, and well, that's sort of my major in school. ;)

And you know what's even neater? My 20% discount off cute-ass clothes! Not that I have the money for clothes right now. Maybe I have blogged about this, or emailed it to somebody because I remember typing that before.

Damn, I'm tired. I've been home about half an hour. Ok, gotta sleep, I have errands I didn't get done today to do tomorrow, plus I still haven't finished cleaning and decorating for Halloween!

Which reminds me, I need a new background picture.

A little post to push the nudity down

I am the ultimate multitasker. I was watching CSI New York on TV and catching the episode of NCIS that I missed Tuesday night online. And I'm not getting confused. :)

I'm going to do a new meme that Xmichra created sometime in the next day or two. She is the Queen of finding good memes, and now she's creating her own. Coming soon to a blog near you.

I still haven't decorated for Halloween, and I usually get that done at least three weeks before. It will probably be Friday before I do it, tomorrow will be full of errands.

I don't think I'm going to get a Fiction Friday done this week, I haven't had time. Maybe next Friday. I want to add to the story I started, I just can't get my head into it this week.

That's all I've got tonight folks.

I'm drinking screwdrivers and watching "The Lake House". Possibly not a good idea.

**Update 10:17pm

OMG, I cried because it was sad, then because it was happy, and maybe a little because I ran out of vodka. And I don't cry at movies! Well, I didn't used to cry at movies. Watch this movie! I loved it. It was so good I'm going to add it to my Amazon.com wishlist.

UCLA Study

A study conducted by UCLA's Department of Psychiatry has revealed that the kind of face a woman finds attractive on a man can differ depending on where she is in her menstrual cycle.

For example: If she is ovulating, she is attracted to men with rugged and masculine features. However, if she is menstruating, she tends to be more attracted to a man with a spear lodged in his chest and tape over his mouth while he is on fire.

No further studies are expected.

I think they tried doing a study on women going through "The Change," but none of the researchers lived to tell about it.

Accomplished

I have two days of no work and no school to get my house cleaned, laundry done, and Halloween decorations up. Here's what I've done so far today:

1. Pulled out all the winter and fall clothes. T's are all tried on and either packed away as too small, or put up. I haven't quite gotten all of little B's tried on her yet, you have to go a bit at a time with toddlers.

2. Packed away some of the summer clothes, I'll finish that up as I finish up the laundry.

3. Laundry is almost caught up, not just clean but folded and put up too! The zillion shirts hanging in the laundry room finally made it upstairs too. :)

4. I rearranged half my closet to separate shirts I can wear to work and shirts I can't.

5. The cat litter is changed and the floor in the half bath I keep it in is clean.

6. One load of dishes running in the dishwasher, one to go. (Yeah, I suck that bad at housework. We had no clean bowls or spoons.)

7. The kitchen, dining room, and foyer are swept. (T helped with some of that.)

8. We ran to the store for a handful of things we needed for the rest the week.

Ok, my break is over, I need to eat and do some cleaning up in my office.

Wrong again

It was not a lucky day. It was a shitty day. I was tired before I even got to work this morning because of work last night. Work was boring. My mom is tired of dealing with my oldest kid and I don't have anywhere else to put her while I work. My oldest kid is almost completely out of control. She just won't follow the rules or do what I say. I have no clue what to do with her. My husband called and even though this last weekend he insisted we were on one more try, now suddenly we aren't even though he was the one who insisted we were and we've been so back and forth I don't know if I'm coming or going.

I'm tired. I'm grumpy. And I'm lonely.

Lucky number

Today is going to be lucky for me. I just know it is.

I don't know why I know that. I just feel like today will be lucky for me. :)

Fiction Friday ~ on Thursday just because

Mystery Girl ~ Part 1

Richard watched the door. Standing in the shadows of two trees, he had been watching it for almost an hour. His source was positive that she would be at the door across the street at 8:00 p.m. It was already 8:15. Manny had never been wrong about a tip before. Richard looked at his watch yet again and decided to wait until nine.

Half an hour later there was still no sign of her. Richard shifted his feet and ran a hand through his hair. Waiting was always the hard part. He had been looking for this girl for over a month. To be this close and still not find her was maddening.

At 9:30 he gave up and walked back to his car, two blocks over and three blocks up. He had been so careful to park far away and get there early. She had been so elusive before, nobody ever seemed to remember her. His first big lead on her and she was a no-show. Manny had been so adamant that she was there every Wednesday night. The back door of the same Italian restaurant. Her order was prepared in advance and she always took it to go.

Richard unlocked his car and fell into the driver's seat. He started the engine and put the old Volkswagen in gear. As he pulled out into the road he felt something cold against his neck.

"Just keep driving like nothing is wrong and you'll be fine. You've been followed by people who want to find me. Once they think you haven't, you 'll be safe."

Richard drove five blocks with a knife digging into the side of his neck before she finally took it away. "They stopped following you. They seem to think you couldn't find me."

"And who exactly are you?" Richard asked brunette climbing into his front seat.

"I'm the woman nobody ever remembers. You've been looking for me."

"How do you know?" he tried to get a look at her while driving, but traffic was too busy.

"I know a lot of things. I know you have been looking for me for a month and a half. Ever since the first fire. What I don't know is why you thought to look for me in the first place."

"You were seen at three fires last month and two this month. That's a little suspicious don't you think?"

"How can you possibly know that?" She sounded so surprised he risked a glance at her. It seemed genuine. Her face was so open, almost innocent. Her eyes seemed to look inside him but he couldn't tell if they were blue or green.

"Your picture was taken at the first fire. I showed it to all the witnesses of the other fires. Only three people thought they recognized you and they weren't sure, but I was. You didn't set them did you?"

"No, but I know who did and I'm trying to stop him. No one would have remembered me if you hadn't had that picture. I was careless."

"Will I remember you tomorrow?"

"Maybe, I haven't decided yet. You can let me out here." He pulled over to the curb and she hopped out and walked back the direction they had come.

He jumped out of the car and called to her, "Wait, you didn't tell me your name."

She stopped and looked at him for a moment before replying. "It's Delia and my eyes are blue, not green."

Figuring Stuff Out

Ok, so being sick has given me plenty of time to reflect on stuff. Some of it meaningless (see last post), some of it rather intuitive. I have figured out that I mostly take people as they are. I'm not saying I'm perfect at it, but when I go into a friendship/relationship whatever I take the good, the bad, and even occasionally the ugly all together as part of that person. That isn't always as good a thing as you would think. I am finding out that it can be used against you. I feel too much too fast. I've been told I can be a rather intense person.

Did you know, I'm naive? Seriously. Not only am I naive, but I'm aware of being naive and can't do a damn thing about it. Now being naive isn't necessarily a bad thing, unless it is used against you. Deliberately. What kind of person does that?

Me and my cop shows

Have you seen Law and Order? There are several different series now. Law and Order Special Victims Unit, and Law and Order Criminal Intent as well as the original. On the original Law and Order one of the original cops was a character named Detective Mike Logan. He was one of my absolute favorites along with his partner named Det. Lennie Briscoe who was played by Jerry Orbach who died two years ago. Jerry Orbach was a phenomenal actor. Another of my favorites was a young DA on the original series, Jill Hennessy. She is now the lead character on Crossing Jordan, which is another cop/forensic show.

Anyway, Det. Mike Logan is played by Chris Noth. Now in the original series he left because of a bad temper which got him into trouble and sent him off to some crappy cop assignment. In reality the actor Chris Noth was over on HBO playing Mr. Big on Sex in the City, which I didn't watch.

Well, Law and Order CI has become my favorite of the L&O trio. Mostly because of Vincent D'Onofrio who plays Det. Robert Goren a totally intense character who I can't help but love. Well last season they introduced a second pair of cops, one of which is my old favorite Logan, who is brought out of exile to this new unit where they give him and his temper a second chance. What brought me to this train of thought?

Well, I'm watching it tonight and Logan and his young partner are up for a meeting with bosses for possibly being in trouble. His young partner's file is a thin little folder, Logan's is this huge fat folder and it cracked me up.

I know, I'm weird. :P

Thoughts

Yesterday we finally got our English test back from two and a half weeks ago. Our regular teacher had been out for foot surgery. Anyway, I got an A! And I was so sure I had bombed it badly, but I didn't. :) We turned in our first big essay project yesterday and I should have a grade back on it in a week or so.

I called in sick to work for tonight. It's only my third day on the job. I tried to get off Saturday, but went in late and still felt I was about to die. The manager said she desperately needed me, so I went in. They rewarded me by putting me in the largest department in the store, alone. With almost no training. Nice. Luckily another guy that works there helped me out. He was working the Mens dept. which was easy since we hardly had any men shopping (football time in Tennessee that night). So today although my cold is mostly gone, I feel lightheaded and occasionally dizzy. I went ahead and called in. If they give me grief when I go back I'm going to share with the store manager how little the lazy ass manager who was on duty Saturday night helped me.

I feel so disoriented today. Not just being sick, but the girls were with their dad all weekend at his parents house and he was here yesterday while I was in school instead of my mom. I don't know, everything just feels wierd. I'm not used to being away from my kids a couple of days at a time. I missed them, but it was kind of nice to get a break too. Everything is so different now with school and the new job. It wasn't that long ago that my whole life pretty much revolved around taking care of my kids. Now I feel disconnected. We have no regular schedule now because of this new job of mine. And it's hard to see the end result. That in a couple of years I'll be done with school and can get a fulltime job hopefully with daytime hours, and normal weekends. Little B will be nearly old enough for school by then. I feel like I'm not giving her enough of me. I'm just in a weird place right now I guess.

New Stuff

I've added new stuff to my sidebar. Including a whole new section titled "My latest addictions". There is only one link there so far, but look for more to come. :)

Okay

I got tired of the aggravated post being on the top so I am here to put something a bit lighter up.

My girls spent the weekend with their dad at his parents house. That was supposed to give me time to work on all this schoolwork I'm backed up on, but I've been too sick to do anything but sleep. And work. I had to go into work sick. My luck being sick my first week of work. He is working in North Carolina right now. He is supposed to be moving to a job in Maryland this month, but the paperwork is moving slowly. Either way, it will probably be a while before he's back down to take the girls.

The cold is improving, although very slowly, as colds do. I am either at school or work every day this week except today, and then I'm off again next Sunday. I only have to work one Sunday a month. Most of my shifts are short 5 hour shifts which is nice since it's a job where I'm on my feet. And I work in the evening this Thursday so little B won't miss storytime at the library Thursday morning. :)

Aggravated

Warning: This post is a bitchfest, proceed at your own risk!


Aggravated: More than frustrated, but not quite pissed off.

This is where I'm at right now. And not about one particular thing, about everything all together. I'm being pulled so many different ways and facing so many contradictions at the moment that I don't know if I'm coming or going.

I have a part time job now. At a small clothing store. I've been in once for paperwork and goofy videos, tomorrow I go in for my first official shift, 9-2. Saturday I have to work 1-close which is roughly 10:30ish. So I spend about 6 hours at school two days a week, plus the online class, and homework. I will work part time two-three days a week. And I am taking care of my kids pretty much by myself other than my mother who watches them while I work.

But I have nothing to complain about. Everything is my own fault or part my fault or something like that. Not sure quite how, but that's what I've been told. I've been wanting to go back to school for five years, and now that I am I feel I can't give it my best because I'm being pulled in so many directions.

If I can just make it through the end of the year, I'll be ok. Isn't that a song or something? "If we make it through December" A country song, I should look that up.

Do you know what would be super nice? To go out. With an adult and do, anything. Eat, see a movie, socialize, be touched by someone other than children with sticky hands, make out in a backseat or something. Wait, I think I got off my train of thought. But that's a good train of thought too. Unfortunatly it leads right back to FRUSTRATION. *sigh*

Did I mention I have a cold?

Ok, I'm done bitching, or whining, or whatever you want to call it. But I warned you at the beginning! If you didn't believe me, well that's your problem.

Stolen from Bubbles

You Should Rule Saturn

Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye. You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature. And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance. You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life. You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past.

What Planet Should You Rule?

Beauty and the Beast (check out sidebar video)

There's another new post below this if you don't care for lyrics. :)


Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Than somebody bends
Unexpectedly

Just a little change
Small, to say the least
Both a little scared
Neither one prepared
Beauty and the Beast

Ever just the same
Ever a surprise
Ever as before
Ever just as sure
As the sun will arise

Tale as old as time
Tune as old as song
Bittersweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong

Certain as the sun
Rising in the east
Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the beast

Found this little blog toy at Rae Ann's

Go make your own.

Myself

Lost and alone
    Searching
     Needing
   Wanting
A shoulder to lean on

Tired and confused
    Wishing
     Hoping
   Waiting
For a hand to hold

Strong and Independent
    Learning
     Working
   Striving
To be happy with myself 

Oh yeah,

Chris started his Amorlia sequel. Go check it out, but first go to the next post and watch my baby playing.

Disney on Ice, wishes, runny noses, and foot surgery

It was a great show, the girls had a great time. All the Princesses were there and Tinkerbell came out between all the different stories. The dragon from Sleeping Beauty spouted real fire onto the ice just before the Prince defeated her. The show was all about wishes coming true.

What do you wish for?


In other news, the girls have colds. T has moved to the coughing-up-a-lung-every-night phase but B just started showing signs of it, so she only has a runny nose.


I made a B on my PC Hardware test today. I don't know what I made on my English test from Monday yet. We have a sub for two weeks. The teacher injured her foot last week and had to have surgery today. Poor thing will be in a wheel chair for a few weeks when she does get back. I miss her. Our sub is annoying.

Things are better

Sort of, I think, in a way, for now at least.

I know, I know, I'm one dramatic mess after another.

But you guys are just awesome. All the comments really felt good, new comers too!

On the other hand, I still won't be around much for a bit, but only because things are a little busy right now. I need to get T's birthday pictures transferred and post a few. Plus tomorrow we are going to Disney on Ice, so I'll have pictures from that. It's a Disney Princess show, and supposed to have Tinkerbell there too! *ahem* The girls are really looking forward to it. ;) I'm going to dress B in last years Halloween Tinkerbell costume if it still fits, and T has picked out a dress she wants to wear with one her princess tiaras. The few actual costumes we have are too little for her now.

I also need to get B's costume for this year finished so I can take pictures of the two of them to send with Halloween cards. I'll post some here as soon as I get to it.

So things are a bit better, but busier.

Oh, and hubs got a job in Maryland. He has been on a contract job in North Carolina, the Maryland job is a permanent job, not contract. He went up there this weekend to look at a room for rent he found on roommates.com. He wants us to move up there, but things just aren't right at the moment. Between him and me as well as with my school and everything else. So for the moment the girls and I are here, and he's there. I really don't want to move. I love my house, and I love Tennessee. This is my home. But we are just going to wait and see what happens.

Still haven't come up with a sign off. Although someone did suggest "May your day be free of imbeciles." Thats a good one. I was hoping to get several suggestions and pick/chose/mix/be inspired by the combination. Well, I'll try to make it around to everyone's blog and post pictures here sooner or later.

Didn't think it was possible

Things just went from bad to worse. And I can't post about it. Probably wont' be here much for a while. Just wanted to let everyone know.

Long-Ass Weekend

Ok, so I have a long weekend this weekend because T doesn't have school tomorrow. So, three days of both kids and no fucking breaks. I'm angry and frustrated for various reasons, none of which I shall put here. I just need to vent, and I can't and it's really, really, really frustrating!

I'm tired. I'm lonely. And I really can't do anything about it right now. I'm kind of tired of people saying, "just go out". Well, umm... even if I could get a baby sitter, I really don't have anyone to go out with. And I'm not really comfortable going out alone. How's this for ironic, the Loner wants friends and has no idea how to go about getting some.

And I mean real friends, not cyber friends because everyone knows online friends aren't real friends.
****If you cannot read the dripping sarcasm in that, you are at the wrong blog.****

One of the poems we studied

Cups of Jade
Author unknown

Where the lotus pool
Is fragrant with flowers,
We drank our last farewell
From cups of jade.

You thought I shunned you
When I, quickly turning,
Hid my face from you,
And would not look again.

Ah!
Being but a man,
How could you know, beloved,
That it was to wipe
The scalding tears away?


~The really neat thing about this poem is that it was written in the Tang Dynasty. But it still makes sense today. I fell in love with it the first time I read it.

School

I haven't mentioned it lately, but school is going good. Two quizzes in the computer class I'm in, awesome grades: 27/30 and 22/20. Yeah, I'm that good. ;) My English class is as good. A couple of small assignments 14/15 on one and a 5/5. My first test is coming up tomorrow in English, it's on poetry. Cross your fingers for me! I understand poetry so much more than I did just a month ago. There are a couple of pieces we have studied that I really liked, I'll share them sometime this week. My first computer test is next Monday (classes only on Monday and Wednesday for both). I have a web class too. It's an incredibly way-back-beginner-why-do-I-need-this-course computer class. If it were an actual class I would fall asleep. lol. It's going fine too.

Well, go read the next post because I posted twice tonight. yeah, I was that bored.

New Season of Shows!

My first premiere tonight! NCIS. Gibbs, the old boss is gone (or is he?), DiNozzo the goofball/womanizer is in charge at the moment, (and a hottie). Ziva is in trouble, again. Abby, the gothic tech from downstairs is hyped up on caffeine as always. Probie isn't the probie anymore, a new girl is.

It's a good show.

Lurking

I was going through my regular blogs and it occurred to me that I do a bit of lurking. You know, reading blogs and not commenting. Now I don't think there are any blogs I go to that I have never commented on, but there are quite a few that I only comment on occasionally. So I started wondering, do I have lurkers? Are there those of you out there that come and read, possibly even enjoy, but never comment? Are you shy, or just don't want to bother with a blogger sign on? Let's have a delurking moment, everyone comment! Or, if you don't have or want a blogger sign on, then go to my profile page and email me.

The making of a card

This is the picture I found for the front of my Halloween card. I know it's more fallish than Halloween, but I couldn't find anything else I liked. I wanted to credit the artist, but the site was foreign and I couldn't figure out a name.

I wrote a cutsie Halloween poem to go in it too, I'll probably put it up later, get opinions before I send them out to family.



I need to get the girl's pictures taken in their costumes to put in the cards. I don't do that every year, but I might this year. I need to see how long it will take to get them back first, I haven't even started on B's costume, and I'm making it (well, buying sweats and decorating it I should say). I might just take them somewhere fallish, take pictures myself and order wallets from Kodak, they will get here in just a few days. Now that I type it, that sounds like a fantastic idea. hehe. I'll post those too when I get them. :)

Oh, and I'm inspired by Xmichra's new sign off "peace, kittens, and rainbows" to come up with my own sign off. Any suggestions?

The butt, I mean but...

Yeah, so I several people have asked about the last post. It was a big argument with hubs after school, and before me finding time to post that burst my happy bubble. I'm better today, except for this ginormous sinus headache. I took little B (who woke up dry and used the potty again!) and went for some errands and shopping for T's birthday, which is Sunday. Nine is a very hard age! She isn't really old enough for some stuff, but she doesn't really play with toys anymore. I picked out awesome stuff though, I'll blog about it next week, with pictures of course. :)

Well, I had good news. I was feeling better. Little B has been dry all day using the potty. I did well on the two papers I turned into English last week. And I also did pretty good on a quiz in my computer class. I was really happy for a few hours.

More lists

Anne had this on her blog, she didn't tag anyone, but I didn't have anything else to say.

Things that scare me.
1. bugs
2. being in total darkness
3. being alone too much

People who make me laugh.
1. My girls
2. Bubbles
3. my blogger buddies

Things I hate most.
1. Liars
2. Mean people
3. bugs

Things I don't understand.
1. Liars
2. Mean people
3. Life

Things I'm doing right now.
1. Making this list.
2. Watching Alias
3. Wishing I had someone to talk to right now.

Things I want to do before I die.
1. Travel to England, Scotland, France, and maybe Italy.
2. Fix my house and yard up like I imagine it.
3. Be in love with someone who can love me in return.

Things I can do.
1. write (as in stories and occasional poems)
2. mix a good strong screwdriver
3. Cross-stitch and quilt rather well.

Ways to describe my personality.
1. snarky
2. vivacious
3. sweet :)

Things I can't do.
1. Lie to someone I care about.
2. draw
3. be mean to animals

Things I think you should listen to.
1. Music, all kinds, whatever you like.
2. A cat purr
3. A mountain stream

Things you should never listen to.
1. known liars
2. Marilyn Manson
3. salesmen

Things I'd like to learn.
1. How to speak french
2. How to play piano
3. How to sing well

Favorite foods.
1. Chocolate fudge cake
2. Pizza
3. hamburgers

Beverages I drink regularly.
1. Pepsi
2. sweet tea
3. screwdrivers


Shows I watched as a kid.
1. Wonder Woman
2. Bugs Bunny
3. The Dukes of Hazzard

Another of Xmichra's awesome tags

So Xmichra has tagged me. It’s supposed to be 8 Facts/Things/Habits about me. I then, am supposed to tag 6 people. They will be at the bottom.

1. I hate it when people wear their shoes in my house. Take them off at the door please, that's what the foyer bench is for.

2. I'm totally addicted to Alias right now. I just started on Season three.

3. Sometimes I give up hope of happiness, but then something brings it back.

4. I act like a mean-ass bitch, but I'm really very tender hearted and get hurt too easy.

5. I hate root beer.

6. I'm loving school.

7. I have no idea where my life is heading.

8. Sometimes it's lonely being me.

I tag:

Bubbles
Anne
Tanya
Good Girl
Rae Ann
The Real Kidd

Drunken post

I am drunkish. Yep. I am. I am watching Alias, season 2 disk 4. I have no idea what to say here. Hubs is here for the weekend. The long holiday weekend. Tonight was Boomsday in Knoxville. Big thingy all day long. Big fireworks at the end. I hate it. Too many people. And we all know about people. They are like slinkys. Mostly useless, but fun to push down stairs. lmao.


Ok, so where the hell is everyone? Nobody blogs anymore and those that do don't blog much. But a few blog as much as always, and that's nice. I don't blog as much as I used to, which sucks. But sometimes I don't know what to say and sometimes all I have to say can't be said. *sigh*


So what am I drinking? Anyone? I bet someone knows. Screwdrivers. lol. My second one. I had three shots of Smirnoff twist of orange vodka too. Yep, THREE. But they were small. Very small. But so am I! hehe.


I have new jammies. I bought them today. The pants are cropped and black with tinkerbells on them. The top is a tank. Grey with tink. It says "believe in magic". Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. Sometimes I believe in the impossible. Sometimes I don't believe in anything.

And what does all that have to do with the price of tea in China??? Not a fucking thing. I'm drunk and I don't have anyone to talk to so I'm rambling. Ok, I could talk to hubs, but he's not drunk, he doesn't drink, how fun is that? Ok, so I'm off here because I say too much and I might say more, which would be way too much. So, I'll say nothing more. At all. And leave so much unsaid.

Kids

Looking at my oldest's schoolwork she brought home to keep, I came across a page with ten sentences on it. Below that was disections of who/what and what is/what happened. It was the sentences that cracked me up. It was apparently about summer vacation, here they are word for word, same spelling.


1. I went to DC.
2. I had a fun time.
3. I went to Hershey.
4. I got the new choclate kissables.
5. We went on a tour.
6. We brought my aunt along.
7. We went to New York.
8. We bought some T-shirts.
9. We slept in a castle shaped hotel.
10. We met my moms blog friend.

Dilemma

I have a dilemma. Which dress should I get for Halloween? I'm thinking of having a party. Opinions please.



This one is nice and flouncy.




















But I'm thinking this one would accentuate my breasts better.

Plus this one is velvety!

It's quiz day

I found this one at Xmichra's.





The Air Fairy is teeming with creative energy. She loves all art, music, stories, imaginion, anything that helps her escape her own boring reality. She pours all her emotion into what she does, which makes her an extraordinary artist. Her natural exhuberance gains her many friends, but she likes being by herself doing what she does best, dreaming! She's friendly, but sometimes seems distant and often loses herself (or others) in her thoughts. She might seem eccentric, but it's just her being herself, which is what everyone should do!

Found at Rae Ann's.

Freudian Inventory Results

Oral (33%) you appear to be stubbornly and irrationally against receiving help even when it might be the more intelligent option. Anal (60%) you appear to have a good balance of self control and spontaneity, order and chaos, variety and selectivity. Phallic (56%) you appear to have a good balance of sexual awareness and sexual composure. Latency (66%) you appear to be afraid or averse to present or future real world responsibilities, this will only make your inevitable transition more difficult, so learn to deal with the real world. Genital (30%) you appear to have a conventional, closeminded, and regressive outlook on life. Change is an inevitable and positive part of life, learn to contribute to it, not fear it or oppose it

Take Free Freudian Inventory Test
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Pissed off

Would someone please explain to me why files created on my laptop and saved on a CD will not show up on my home computer so I can print them? And the one that does show up says "read only". It's the same program and everything that I'm using. It would be easier to write the damn thing on paper and turn it in that way!

First day of school

So I started back to school today. Three hour computer hardware class, then an hour and a half English class. I like both teachers and I have homework! A one page essay on a poem of my choice. I have an online computer class too, but I'm having technical difficulties and haven't been able to log in yet. Next school day is Wednesday. I only go Mondays and Wednesdays so, because of labor day next week is only Wednesday. A slow start, but that could be a good thing.

Rain

I was thinking that we need rain, and it made me long for a nice summer shower, not a storm. You know the kind that causes everything to smell good and fresh, washing all the dirt away.

School

I start school Monday. I'm getting pretty excited now. I have one beginning computer class online. Another beginning computer class and english class on Mondays and Wednesdays. Pretty cool that I only have to be at school two days a week. Ok, so here is the rundown on all the fun it took me to get there.

First I got the computer class for Tuesdays and Thursdays. Had to take the other class online because the school overlapped the them and both are prerequisites for everything else. But the Tuesday, Thursday English class was full. So I waited a few days until the deadline to pay fees, then the next day two spots opened up. I had my English class. Several days later they call to tell my my Tuesday, Thursday computer class in which I arranged my entire schedule around was canceled.

Fuck.

So I called the head of the department, and he gave me a different class in which I could take as a substitute. No Tuesday, Thursday class, just a Monday, Wednesday class. So I check English classes, there I found an early evening Monday, Wednesday class. So I go back to school and drop the old English class, add the new English class and the substitute computer class.

Voila, perfect schedule. And all it took was three trips to Admissions.

Happy Bunny is Awesome

You scored as Kiss My Ass. You are the kiss my ass bunny. People can say all they want about you and you wouldn't give a damn.

Kiss My Ass		92%
Cute but Psycho		92%
Sloppy and Weird		75%
You Suck and Thats Sad		67%
I Hate You so Bad		67%
Love Sucks		58%
It's All About Me		33%
You Smell Like Butt		25%

What's Your Happy Bunny?
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I actually own a "cute but psycho" happy bunny shirt. AND there is one on my sidebar already. Go on, go see it. ;)

check me out

I found this over at Belle of the Brawl.

I'm a Lamborghini Murcielago!

You're not subtle, but you don't want to be. Fast, loud, and dramatic, you want people to notice you, and then get out of the way. In a world full of sheep, you're a raging bull.

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

MySpace

I have a MySpace here. I've had it for a while, mostly to goof off with my sisters. I figured I would share it here now.

Bad dreams and homecomings

My toddler woke me up a bit after 4 am. She's been doing it for a couple of weeks always between 3 and 5. Anyway, I calm her down and get her going back to sleep and I go back to bed. I had the most terrible dreams, very intense and they bounced around a couple of different ways. It was the kind you wake up feeling bad from.


Then this afternoon I found out that hubs is on his way home. Right now. Should be here tomorrow night. The contract ran out, or out of money, or something. He is here a day or two then to Texas to out-process. Then he has two different jobs lined up. One a contract here in the states, the other, I'm not sure what it is actually. But it's in Maryland, and no, I'm not moving. I'm really not sure what we are doing, where we are going, or if we are even a we anymore. I don't think I was ready to deal with this yet, I thought I had a couple more months to pretend everything is fine.

Fuck. I have a headache.

Playing Around

I added some more stuff to my sidebar. Just a few blinkies and stuff. :)

Eye Candy

Natural Wonders

Tonight I was watering my flowerbeds and right over the Zinnias a little hummingbird suddenly appeared. It hovered for a moment, then zipped off, as if suddenly aware of how close it had come to a human encounter. It reminded me of a couple other little things.

Last week I was in a rather evil mood and taking it out on my yard. One of the chores I had to get done was dragging the pieces of the girl's old swing-set up front to put them in the back of hubs truck. The theory is that eventually I will drive the truck to the dump and get rid of it. Anyway on one trip I bent over to pick up another piece and there was the prettiest yellow feather with black on it. It made me pause, and part of my bad mood evaporated.

The other little event I thought of happened in New York. I can't believe I forgot to blog about it. When we were down in the subway waiting for it a little white butterfly went by. It was so odd to see it down there. I felt special to get to see it.

Grey's Anatomy ~ Season 1 Disk 2

Blockbuster finally had the second disk in for season one. Season 2 is coming out next month, I'm hoping to catch it as soon as possible so I'm not lost when the new season starts.

So anyway, anyone who watches the show knows how Meredith Grey narrarates the show. On one episode I saw today she's comparing life and fairy tales. She says something I really liked.

"And it's not so important that it's happy ever after. Just that it's happy right now. See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. And once in a while, people may even take your breath away."

I am so addicted to this show.

I found this at Tanya's.


TAG-O-RAMA!

Ok, so I didn't do the first part because it was just too freaking depressing and upset me and ok, on to more fun stuff.


5 songs I know all the words to
**A few off my current ipod list
There are worse things I could do ~ Grease Soundtrack
Extraordinary ~ Liz Phair
Travelin' Soldier ~ Dixie Chicks
Moulin Rouge ~ Pink, Christina, etc.
Let's Make Love ~ Faith Hill

5 snacks
Tangerine jelly bellies, haven't had them in a while, need to get some
M & M's
Kissables
Doritos
I just don't do snacks much

5 things I'd do with $100 million
pay off all my debts (including house)
donate to my favorite charities
put up some for my kids
take care of my sisters and mom
buy a cottage in England, a cabin in the mountains, and an apartment in NY

5 places I'd run away to
Paris
England/Scotland
New York
The Caribbean
My mountains

5 things I'd never wear
granny panties
a cross your heart bra
ugly shoes (even when pregnant, I refused)
mini skirt with high heels
tube top

5 fave TV shows
Charmed
Grey's anatomy
CSI
Law and Order - Criminal Intent
Lost

5 greatest joys
My girls
My family (most of them)
My friends
My pets
My alone time

5 fave toys
camera
my computers
ipod
dvd player
my SUV

And I tag: anyone who wants to do it. Just leave a comment so I can come see it.

Justin who?

**Second post of the day, make sure you go check out the first one below!**

Justin Timberlake has gone naughty. Check out the little video below. (ignore the stupid commercial before it)

Here are the lyrics:


Sexy Back

I'm bringing sexy back (yeah)
Them other boys don't know how to act (yeah)
I think your special what’s behind your back (yeah)
So turn around and I’ll pick up the slack. (yeah)

Take em' to the bridge (listen)

[Bridge]
Dirty babe (aha)
You see these shackles
Baby I'm your slave (aha)
I'll let you whip me if I misbehave (aha)
It's just that no one makes me feel this way (aha)

Take em' to the chorus

[Chorus]
Come here girl
Go ahead, be gone with it
Come to the back
Go ahead, be gone with it
VIP
Go ahead, be gone with it
Drinks on me
Go ahead, be gone with it
Let me see what you're twerking with
Go ahead, be gone with it
Look at those hips
Go ahead, be gone with it
You make me smile
Go ahead, be gone with it
Go ahead child
Go ahead, be gone with it
And get your sexy on (yes)
Go ahead, be gone with it

Get your sexy on (yes)
Go ahead, be gone with it
[X6]

Get your sexy on

I'm bringing sexy back (yeah)
Them other fuckers don't know how to act (yeah)
Come let me make up for the things you lack (yeah)
Cause your burning up I gotta get it fast (yeah)

Take em' to the bridge (listen)

[Bridge]
[Chorus]
You ready [x3]
Yes

I'm bringing sexy back (yeah)
You mother fuckers watch how I attack (yeah)
If that's your girl better watch your back (yeah)
Cause she'll burn it up for me and that's a fact (yeah)

Take em' to the chorus
[Chorus]
Your ready (yes) [x2]
Yes

Look what I found!

Google has a video search now! And a video player! And look what I found!

Charmed

I'm really going to miss that show.

What's going on

I registered for school yesterday. I can only take two computer classes because all the others need those two for a prerequisite. The only times those two classes are offered overlap. Duh. But one can be taken online so I'm taking it online. That's it for this semester. I have most of the extras like English, Statistics, and Economics from the last time I went there, so I don't have to take those again. :) Classes start at the end of this month.

School for my oldest starts in TWO DAYS! On a Friday for some reason, half day. But next week all day all week! Woohoo!

*I do love my oldest child, but damn she can be a handful!

Tagged by Xmichra

1. I do not like mean people.

2. I wish for things I can't have.

3. I am afraid sometimes.

4. I want a simple life.

5. I did enjoy my vacation, but I'm glad to be home.

6. I can’t open up easily, but I'm working on it.

7. I would like to meet more blogger-buddies.

8. I love my friends.

9. I should get out more, but I'm shy.

10. I won’t put up with bullshit.

If you read this, all my homies on the sidebar, let me know what’s up in your life with 10 !! I used a similar format to Xmichra, but any ten things are fine.

Check out the funnies below.

Funny stuff

I got this in an email today and thought I would share it.


Consider these 3 thoughts:

(1) Zero Gravity
When NASA first started sending up astronauts, they quickly discovered
that ball point pens would not work in zero gravity. To combat this
problem, NASA scientists spent a decade and $12 billion developing a pen
that writes in zero gravity, upside down, on almost any surface including
glass and at temperatures ranging from below freezing to over 300 degrees
centigrade. The Russians used a pencil. Your taxes are due again--enjoy
paying them.

(2) Our Constitution
They keep talking about drafting a constitution for Iraq. Why don't we
just give them ours? It was written by a lot of really smart guys, and
worked for over 200 years, and we're not using it any more.

(3) Ten Commandments
The real reason that we can't have the Ten Commandments in a Courthouse
is that you cannot post "Thou Shalt Not Steal", "Thou Shalt Not Commit
Adultery", and "Thou Shalt Not Lie" in a building full of lawyers, judges,
and politicians. It creates a hostile work environment.

Apologies and catch up

I've been trying to keep up with my blogging, but I keep missing people here and there. Also, I'm terrible about responding to comments and emails. I've just been busy with after vacation clean up and getting ready for school. T starts back next Friday, and I was supposed to register myself to go back yesterday, but we had a storm blow through that knocked out a bunch of lights and traffic was hell, so I had to wait. I'm going Tuesday morning while my mom has the kids. I'm going back to the same college I went to years ago so hopefully it will be a smooth process. I even think some of the classes I need for my two-year program can be skipped because I had them, or something close before. It depends on how picky they are about how long it's been since I took them.


While shopping for T's school stuff, I got me a few things too. Including these cute little sandals! We can wear sandals down here right into Novemeber sometimes, and these are less summer-ish than my others.




I posted pictures in three separate posts below. Make sure to check them out.

More pictures ~ Part 2

Here are some more random pictures from our visit to New York.



Saber-toothed cat

Mammoth
The one museum we couldn't go into. (make sure you pull up the picture and read the sign in the right window.)
























Make sure you check out the pictures below in part 1

More Pictures ~ Part 1

**I finally managed to get blogger to upload my pictures, so here is more vacation stuff.


The second and third days we were in Washington, we saw a bunch of different monuments and museums. Again, I tried to see stuff that would appeal to all of us, and there is no way you can see half of everything in only three days. It's just an excuse to plan a trip back, right?

I do have to say here that the people, not just workers and stuff, but everyone we ran across was nice. Really. Several times we stopped to check our little guide, and obviously we were tourists and a local just stopped and asked what we needed. We got around on the metro train while we were there so we didn't actually have to drive into the capitol area. The first time it was completely alien to us, and the guy working down there walked us through what we needed to do and gave us a little guide to the different stations. After that it was easy to figure out. Even the two year old was a pro at getting on and off the zillion escalators that lead in and out of the stations by the time we were done.

Ok, so here are a sampling of picures from the rest of our time in DC.

Poetry Break

I couldn't get the pictures I wanted to post to upload on blogger, so here's something I wrote last month. Be nice, I wrote it late one night when I couldn't sleep.


Come to me
in my dreams
dear lover.

Take me in
your arms.

Hold me close.
Kiss me again.

Whisper my name
as I whisper yours.

Come to me
in my dreams
dear lover.

The National Zoo

On our trip, I tried to go places we adults would enjoy, but also the kids wouldn't be bored silly. Which isn't easy as far apart in age as my kids are. The first day in Washington DC we went to the National Zoo.

Of course, the kitties were one of my favorites! Aren't they sweet?!?! We have cheetahs at our zoo, but the area they are in here sucks and you can never see them.










The giraffe made me feel shorter.














Everytime I look at this picture the Miami Vice (the show, not the new movie) theme song pops in my head.








There was a baby sloth bear. He was six months old.











Panda in a tree. None of us had seen a panda in person before.











This is the new baby Panda, Tai Shan. He turned one earlier in July. The mom is in the back if you look close. At one point he rolled around and the whole crowd went "awww" at the same time. He was sooooo cute!

Cool air finally!

Thanks to Rae Ann's hubby, my upstairs air now works!

New song

This song has been around for a while, and I just love it. I can't hardly sit still when it comes on.

Enjoy!

Updates

We had a great vacation! It took us twelve hours to get home! That included two stops to eat, and a couple of other quicky stops. I had completely forgotten my upstairs air went out just before we left, it should be fixed by tonight. I have tons more pictures. I only put a few on my laptop, but now that I'm home I will transfer them all on my home computer and bombard you with pictures and stories! hehe. So, look for more vacation posts tonight or tomorrow, I'll spread it out a few days or so. Right now, I need to stock up groceries, catch up laundry, and unpack.

I'm home!

I've been home less than half an hour, and I'm blogging. :)

So where are we this weekend?


A city we've never been to.


A city I've wanted to see since high school.


A city one blog-friend lives very close to.


That's right, we had a tour guide for the day.




Actually we had three. Chris and his family showed us some sites. Here we are at the top of the Empire State Building.










Then we went to the American Museum of Natural History.



Where we saw dinosaurs. :)


I was going to post a few more pictures, but blogger has become special tonight.

Hershey

Yes Kaliblue, our little detour was Hershey, PA. We visited Hershey World. Just a quick distraction, I mean attraction. We are now at our second and last hotel. Tuesday morning we head home.

So where are we now? It's north, way north.

And let me tell you about this waiter we had at Chili's tonight. He was a little hottie with the cutest accent.

On the road again

Tomorrow morning we will check out of our hotel here in Washington D.C. and hit the road again. We are making a little detour to stop at a sweet tourist spot before reaching our next hotel. Then we will spend the weekend in...


Nah. Not gonna tell you.


We saw several museums including the National Museum of the American Indian.

















Where we found a bit of our own ancestry.




















































The view from the window at the end of our hall.